-Suaning time.-
k, if ur not up to any suaning rite now, dun read this. cuz u might hate me. (but u still will even if ur not up to it).
i had enuf. honestly, i dun tink that i haf any real friends to call my own. all those ppl.. all the happy faces. its all a lie. they are just tolerating me. i can see that they dun like me. they are just acting happy. wat can i do. im depressed rite now.
scouts is being a real bitch rite now. wat is the point. i dun see any point. why bother working my ass off trying to salvage watever is left of my patrol? why shd i bother? i see no reason. i dun understand y ppl dun want to do anything and in the end im the dumb fucker who does all the shti for every1. i had it. i see no point. there is none. previous camps, there was some motivation. at least there were some ppl who could push me to do things. but now, things just seem.. pointless. just hopeless. i dunno wat more i shd say.
talking about scouts.. if u want to put it in the number of camps participated, i haf contributed to scouts the most. fine. i dun really mind that. but am i getting recongnition? no. wow.. tl interview.. hmm, i dun tink i was invited was i. fine. my class sux. ok. so dun consider me at all. just ignore all that i haf done for the unit. the unit. wtf.
-update-
hmm.. k, shall squeeze in this fast update.. wow, look at the time.. 1.20am now..why am i up so late... hmph. scouts. commitments. strees. pressure. alot of groups expect my group to perform. btw, i am from Les Frère. why does every 1 see me as competition? just because there is me and arvind together. thats gonna help a lot, especially if its only me and aaron who has turned up for all three meetings so far.. seriously, attnedance is like shit. the most so far in one of the prepartions is only like.. 5/9??? wtf... where is every1.. why am i the only stupid fool doing all the blardy shit? why am i the 1 stressing myself out when all the others dun give a damn? hmm.. points to ponder..
for those who didnt understand that, nvm. results for TA2. 9/34 in class. cool, top 10. TOTALLY unexpected. really. i didnt study for this ta2. but then again... maybe thats also wat happened to the others.. results this ta is shit. the next ta is going to be better. watch me.
-Sec 3 RME Retreat-
Whoa.. my sec 3 rme retreat was from friday to saturday... It was a truly great experience. for those who havent gone for it yet, you have the option to read or not to read what went on. all i haf to say is that if there will be less of an impact if u noe wat is going to happen.
~highlight to read~
Friday: 2.30pm-assembled in lt1. briefing. then left for FMM house of prayer.
3.30pm- reached FMM house of prayer. went to our dormitories, left our bags, changedd and rested.
4.00pm- had games. organised by Bernard Teo. was quite fun. first game_ bring a ball to the other side. every1 must touch the ball. ya.... second game_each person takes a card. it will have 2 words on it, one in black, one in red. u represent the black and you are supposed to find to red. e.g. Boy ang Girl. boy is black, girl is red. u are boy, and supposed to find girl, and girl is supposed to find u. thats kinda wat happened to me. 3rd game_the person u found for the second game is ur partner. then u are supposed to "mirror" his moves. then he will guide you thru an obstacle course.
7.00pm- dinner.
8.00pm- gathered in the 2nd floor room. found out the theme of the retreat. Fellowship of the Weak. spin off from LOTR. watched a short movie clip. then supposed to create a skit. was damn funny watching all the groups. very funny. my group did smt like a royal rumble, which had LOTR, star wars, harry potter and WWE... lol..
11.00pm- supper, then lights out.
Saturday: 8.00am- wake up, then pt. wah, shiok man...first camp that could actually sleep until so late.. but pt was quite a bad... or maybe im just really unfit. =P
9.00am- breakfast. then had sort of like a puzzle game. v funny watching all the groups get the pieces together, and the results were really weird. haha..
1.00 pm- lunch. some ppl were really bored, so took a ball, played soccer. i had 2 cups of coffee. nescafe. felt hyper.
2.00pm- played more games. REALLY GROSS!! 1st game_select one of your group members. then dress him up for a beauty pageant. wahahaa.. some of them had like, only their shorts and a few strands of toilet roll arnd them?? lol... 2nd game_after the beauty pageant, now a waterbomb game. main objective, keep ur model in the best shape. my grp won. had only the skirt on left. really lame. 3rd game_k, this is the sick one.. take twwo bananas, stuff them under ur armpit, then have a relay, and ur only allowed to hop. then the next part was in between the legs. (-.^) just gross.
6.00pm- after bathing, changing and all that, gathered back in the room. then watched this video, taken from
7.45pm- dinner. was a really nice dinner. the facilitators were really nice. then arranged the tables in like a circle, then there were candles. very nice ambience.
8.30pm- had praise and worship. then confession. was a long time since i had confession. stoned while waiting. in the end had like a mass confession, cuz it was getting late. wat to do, abt 60 ppl and only 2 priests. then had a letter from Jesus.
11.00pm- supper. a lot of ppl gathered in the canteen. then one of the facilitators brought a protable radio, then placed it on the table. every1 gathered arnd it and listened to the match between man u and arse-senal. grr... man u lost.. but it was nice just seeing all the ppl gathering around 1 small radio and listening.
1.00am- slept.
Sunday: 7.30am- early mass. celebrated by friar. then mad rush to clean up the place.
11.00am- left the place, took bus home.
~Thanks:
i would like to thank the following ppl who in one waY or another helped me in the camp-
>>Daryl, Serena and all of the team who helped get this camp together. thank you.
>>brother michael, sydney tan, j liew, friar mike. thank you for taking your time to come.
>>brendon, benjamin, kenneth, calvin, matthew, ryan, calvin, dominic and david. thank you for being part of my group. u guys haf been great.
>>group 1, thank you for accepting me as a friend.
>>michael ee, mark vincent and others.. thank you for tolerating me in this camp.
>>to all others, thank you for going for the camp!!
**THANK YOU**
~highlight to read~
Friday: 2.30pm-assembled in lt1. briefing. then left for FMM house of prayer.
3.30pm- reached FMM house of prayer. went to our dormitories, left our bags, changedd and rested.
4.00pm- had games. organised by Bernard Teo. was quite fun. first game_ bring a ball to the other side. every1 must touch the ball. ya.... second game_each person takes a card. it will have 2 words on it, one in black, one in red. u represent the black and you are supposed to find to red. e.g. Boy ang Girl. boy is black, girl is red. u are boy, and supposed to find girl, and girl is supposed to find u. thats kinda wat happened to me. 3rd game_the person u found for the second game is ur partner. then u are supposed to "mirror" his moves. then he will guide you thru an obstacle course.
7.00pm- dinner.
8.00pm- gathered in the 2nd floor room. found out the theme of the retreat. Fellowship of the Weak. spin off from LOTR. watched a short movie clip. then supposed to create a skit. was damn funny watching all the groups. very funny. my group did smt like a royal rumble, which had LOTR, star wars, harry potter and WWE... lol..
11.00pm- supper, then lights out.
Saturday: 8.00am- wake up, then pt. wah, shiok man...first camp that could actually sleep until so late.. but pt was quite a bad... or maybe im just really unfit. =P
9.00am- breakfast. then had sort of like a puzzle game. v funny watching all the groups get the pieces together, and the results were really weird. haha..
1.00 pm- lunch. some ppl were really bored, so took a ball, played soccer. i had 2 cups of coffee. nescafe. felt hyper.
2.00pm- played more games. REALLY GROSS!! 1st game_select one of your group members. then dress him up for a beauty pageant. wahahaa.. some of them had like, only their shorts and a few strands of toilet roll arnd them?? lol... 2nd game_after the beauty pageant, now a waterbomb game. main objective, keep ur model in the best shape. my grp won. had only the skirt on left. really lame. 3rd game_k, this is the sick one.. take twwo bananas, stuff them under ur armpit, then have a relay, and ur only allowed to hop. then the next part was in between the legs. (-.^) just gross.
6.00pm- after bathing, changing and all that, gathered back in the room. then watched this video, taken from
7.45pm- dinner. was a really nice dinner. the facilitators were really nice. then arranged the tables in like a circle, then there were candles. very nice ambience.
8.30pm- had praise and worship. then confession. was a long time since i had confession. stoned while waiting. in the end had like a mass confession, cuz it was getting late. wat to do, abt 60 ppl and only 2 priests. then had a letter from Jesus.
11.00pm- supper. a lot of ppl gathered in the canteen. then one of the facilitators brought a protable radio, then placed it on the table. every1 gathered arnd it and listened to the match between man u and arse-senal. grr... man u lost.. but it was nice just seeing all the ppl gathering around 1 small radio and listening.
1.00am- slept.
Sunday: 7.30am- early mass. celebrated by friar. then mad rush to clean up the place.
11.00am- left the place, took bus home.
~Thanks:
i would like to thank the following ppl who in one waY or another helped me in the camp-
>>Daryl, Serena and all of the team who helped get this camp together. thank you.
>>brother michael, sydney tan, j liew, friar mike. thank you for taking your time to come.
>>brendon, benjamin, kenneth, calvin, matthew, ryan, calvin, dominic and david. thank you for being part of my group. u guys haf been great.
>>group 1, thank you for accepting me as a friend.
>>michael ee, mark vincent and others.. thank you for tolerating me in this camp.
>>to all others, thank you for going for the camp!!
**THANK YOU**
-update-
luv mi song now.... collide... maybe it might happen for me.. wahaha.. im dreaming =P
ytd had cross country. no comments. dun wish to curse and swaer on this blog any more.
got back these marks so far:
chem, 54 (27 for test)
physics:??(21.5 for test, not sure if other tests will be counted)
emath:41(17 for test)
History elec: 54 (8/13 for the history essay... then 12/25 for the ss... argh.. i analysed the sbq wrongly... why... last term i also screwed this subject for the same reason..)
not gd results. only haf myself to blame.
-Lyrics-Howie Day, Collide-
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
-confilcts.-
hmm.. james cheong sux.
haiz... that guy is an idiot... stupid idiot.... me and nigel took 151 together... from theesso bus stop.. so he gets on at the tanglin cc bus stop.. fine.. i leave u alone, u leaveme alone... then the bastard comes and sits near us starts talking to nigel.. fine.. i still leave him alone... then talk talk talk, talk until about cross country... then the ass hole says that his 2.4 was 11++ min... and says "better than john isaac..." im like wtf.... go to hell larh... ur a bloody tracker, quit scouts go track, then in the end u only get like 11++min..loser.. then i get up to get off the bus.. then the idiot kicks my leg for no fucking reason...fuck, then feel like whacking him back, then dno y i just said, " im not going to fight u in public.." hmmm.. i dno why i said that... anw.. later on the bus wif nigel, he toldme i seemed different.. very quiet.. ardh.. why am i wasting my time talking about this bastard...
-confused.-
OMFG... I FREAKING PASSED MY CHEMISTRY!!! WOOTZZ!!! lol... wow.. i actually passed...cuz it was like, ytd tan choy pin told me that i failed... then todae get back the test paperin the end got 27/50!! wahhahaha... damn happy that i passed... considering that i was not doing any hardcore mugging at all... but still.. shdnt be praising myself.. oh ya, highes in class is justin, 37.5/50.. thats like, 75%.. wth.. a1 leh.. thats just for the paper lorh... hmm.. speaking of which, waht if u were put in a situation where by u noe this person who had his marks miscounted for a subject he failed. then u also haf some stuffwhich might haf been overlooked by the teacher. then, he decides to go and get more marks for that paper... what would u do? would u stop him from going? would u let him go and get the extra marks? hmm.. now in a dilemma as to what i shd do... haiz.. why do i haf to be put in this situation...
-ITS OVER!!!-
woohoo.... its over... k, i might be lagging a bit by only posting this now, but nvm... so anw, emath and chem was on tuesday, a math and physics was on wed, then ss was on thurs... only haf this to say abt them: "Hoping For The Best, Prepared For The Worst... (well, almost) "