-Away-
ok, so i will be away from the 29th july to 13th august. so wont be blogging for sure during those times. haha. dot wish to talk about anything else. i will be missing stepping up ceremony. but not that it matters that much for me now. sigh..
-Evil?-
A university professor once challenged his students:
"Did God create all things that exist?"
One student bravely stated immediately:
"Of course!"
The professor then quizzed him:
"If God created everything, and if evil exists, and going by the principal that our works define who we are, then that means God created evil."
The student became quiet. The professor, pleased with himself, boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the Christianity was but a myth.
Another student raised his hand and said:
"Can I ask you a question professor? Does cold exist?"
The professor scoffed at his question and said
:"What kind of question is that? Of course it exists. Have you never been cold?"
The young man replied:
"In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is but the absence of heat."
"Every body or object can be studied if it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or object have or transmit heat energy. Cold does not exist. We have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat."
The student continued:
"Professor, does darkness exist?"
The professor responded:
"Of course it does."
The student replied:
"Once again you are wrong sir; darkness is in reality the absence of light, Light we can study, but not darkness. You cannot measure darkness. How can you know how dark a certain place is? You measure the amount of light present. Isn't this correct? Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present."
Finally the young man asked the professor:
"Sir, does evil exist?"
Now uncertain, the professor responded:
"Of course as I have already said. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil."
To this the student replied:
"Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word tat man creates to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is not like faith, or love that exist just as does light and heat. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It is like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light."
The professor sat down.
Who was this young man?
-Why Bother...-
this week has been rather stressful on me.. me trying to settle problems with myself.. sleeping late at night cause was rushing to finish the half blood prince (yes, i have finished it) cuz my sisters are like bugging me for it, then me trying to cope with my time spent playing dota.. and prob the biggest 1 of all: scouts. i really cant take much more. i work so hard in sec 1 and 2. im not fucking bullshitting. i put in almost all the effort that i could put in. i was at prob every single gathering which they had organised. i was always voluteering for camps. but all for what? why.. i dont get it. where did i screw up? why cant i have spl? karjun apparently has a secured spot as spl. shih hoong is tl. if it comes down to me and trent, i have to say he is going to get it. i mean look at him. 331, top class. best fitness, very entushiastic scout. then even has a chance for exco. look at me. 323. 9th class in the level. so what if i had best sec 1 and best skills. its not helping me. i still dont get the spl. and i still dont understand. why.. why things turned out this way.. how could it have.. i put in so much effort.. and i see the position i want being taken away.. and i dunno, i just feel bloody confused and unapreciated. so much effort, so little reward. so i am probably going to get sec 3 trainer. ok, so that is good. but how? i would just be pl.. so much for me, thinking that this year was the year where traditions would be brkoen. and traditions were broken. but somehow not for me. and i still dont understand what is going on with my life. so much for recongnition. im just some 1 who knows a lot. thats it. no leadership. well, some may say that there can be last minute changes, but what chance is there for that?
and i cant keep my anger inside me for much longer. im ready to lash out already. my mum isnt quite helping. im damn pissed. i wonder what i would be like if i just lost it. just lost all self control. and just go berserk. wow, wonder what people would think of me then. who knows, i might just be what they always thought i was. im still holding on, with that last bit of strength in me. but i am ready to burst.
~~why do i am i always creating these kind of meaningless entries?~~
-Maybe-
or maybe, i am just over reacting. like i always do. so maybe i am really arrogant and need to tone down. maybe. who knows for sure?
its kinda funny the way the world works. people are considered outcasts because they are different. e.g, adults think that teens are freaks, because of all the punk behaviour. however, if the world was dominated by teens instead, adults would seem like the freaks.. what is really going on now..
-My Blog. My Life-
this post was put to this colour because it might hurt other peoples' feelings. please leave this part of the past behind.
i think this is the title of my blog. yeah, so all things here are my thoughts. M-I-N-E. gettit?
i dont need anyone telling me what to do. and seriously, stop spamming my board already. its chilldish, and i could go on and on about that matter but i wont, because that would be just gay. whoops, did i say gay? hmm... infer yourself what that meant..
-So much, So little-
so much has happend since the last time.. it is a long time since i last blogged.. hmm, maybe seems long because of the things that have happened, not so much the time passed.. anyway, i was thinking of creating a poem to express my self but decided to screw the ideea. ok, maybe i just dont have the artistic side of myself. lol. anyways, the highlights:
interview with mr lui- went on tuessday. scouts and ncc land both on that day. each ugo 4 ppl. so ncc went first. chuxian, kaichuen, yangjun, martin. then scouts. trent, shih hoong, karjun, me. i was the last. and since every1 all had to leave in case there was a discussion of answers, every1 else left, leaving me at the very end, and when karjun went in i was all alone. got really nervous. so then came my turn. walked in, then sat down. the room was cold. so then he started asking qns. me, being the idiot, tried to portray myself as some1 confident asnwered all the qns fired at me immediately. meaning, i didnt think through my answers. meaning, i pretty much screwed the interview. bad. anyways, what hast been done has been done. move on.
~edit~
**hmm, if i could remember what i had wanted to write here i would put it up, but currently my mood has been spoilt. go figure.**
-Scouts Posting-
hmm, i dont really feel like blogging abt the first and second week.. i mena seriously, the post below this 1 is like super sick lah.. can believe i wrote so long.. so i shall make this 1 short.. at least compared to the 1 below.. lol..
i really marvel at the scouts system of choosing leaders. they tell us to stay back after school 1 day all of a sudden, tell us to fill up a form about who deserves what post, then on that day itself they hold a potral leader council (PLC) to discuss the posts. then, now they want us to write a speech. which is after they decided the posts. so effectively, we are going to tell every1 wat position we want when we may jut be wishing hopefully and some sec 4s could even be laughing at us for dreaming... hmm..
That was just a worst case scenario, but it is stil quite a real possibilty. im just puzzled.. why now? why so late? and why decide then let us speak? wat we filled up is who we think is fit, not who we think should be.. there is a difference.. to me at least.. and i dont think that it shd be judged based on that piece of paper.. but who am i, only a sec 3, who hasnt stepped up yet so whose opinion isnt that inportatnt... haiz... watever...
~Top 3? TL? SPL? QM? Secratary? PL? APL? Patrol Third? what shd i go for..?