*Serendipity

i have decided.

2006-03-27T18:15:00.000+08:00

i suppose its come down to this. well i made 2 major decisions, which WILL impact my life quite greatly.

ok, so one, i suppose we i should just take things as it comes. forget about my social life for now and concentrate on my exams. it needs time, please be understanding. wait for me..

and 2. i have had enough of whats going on in scouts. and i am going to do something. if that doesnt work i will move on to something more drastic. and if that doesnt work... lets see how things turn out first shall we.

"she's on your mind"

Maybe its just me

2006-03-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

or either that i am very bad at dropping hints.

dont know where i should go from here. the o levels are about 200 days away. which honestly isnt alot of time. and i know what i have to do. but then i dont feel like doing it.

i need a guide. not my parents though. as much as it might sound bad and all that, i have heard enough from them.

Lord, if you are reading this help me.

my birthday just passed

2006-03-24T00:04:00.000+08:00

and it was rather quiet and sad. dont think i shall elaborate any more. it was just sad.

can i be your memory

2006-03-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

tmr is 23rd march. ermm, sports heats day. YEAH...

=) heh

the best present i could receive is not from you, but you.

SJI campfire 2006: Living Iridescence

2006-03-19T00:26:00.000+08:00

campfire was quite ~~interesting screwed up fun bad great lousy~~.. no comments. i dont know what i should say about it... theres just so much to say about it and so little i want to and can say. the theme was colours, which i dont know if it was really the best of themes possible. and then there was the fire lighting which i was in charge of in, and there was some regrets.. like theodore having inhaled too much kerosene causing his asthma to act up and him having to go home sick, and having to miss the campfire. and then it turned out the firewood also wasnt soaked that well. and probably the worst thing of it all was that the electrical fire could not start.. sigh.. that one was really sad. oh wells, things have happened the way it is.

and i dont think we should have cheered that much, as in after the campfire. it was like rather extra, and also kind of holding up the other schools from going for refreshments.. i mean ok if it had happened during the thing itself wouldnt be that bad i suppose.. or then again..

and its quite stressing on the voice having to shout at people to cheer so that they will actually cheer. dont know whats wrong with them, why cant they just do what they have to do..

and some sec 1s have attitude problem. honestly. but then again i wont need to care because they wont be seeing me as much as their sec 1 trainers. so yeahh..

oh wells, i suppose the campfire turned out... oh forget it, no word can describe it.. so yeah, good night everyone, dont sleep too late. (i should learn to take my own advise)

the longest kiss

2006-03-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

tired. yeah, been staying in school since wednesday morning to evening. yet when i get home i cant seem to find the strength to tell myself to complete my homework. just really tiring..

and i dont know what is happening right now. all i know is that im listening to all the songs you sent to me, and thinking about it. wish i could get my message across to you.

lets hope that tomorrow's campfire will be a success

nonsense

2006-03-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

see a penny pick it up, all day long you'll have good luck.

right, who am i trying to kid here?

things have come to a very nasty end.

go figure.

im not saying anymore, in case i am said to be calling myself the victim of everything.

i dont deny i was wrong.

but did things have to turn out this way?

so lets see if there will be anymore turning points in the future for now.

and im so sick of love songs

2006-03-09T18:29:00.000+08:00

really? hmm..

got back all of my results. and i got a c5 for english. cant. believe. it.

sigh.. kinda sad.. but oh well, i only have myself to blame. which i shall not do, rather i shall use it and spur myself on.

happy dreaming!

-why cant i turn off the radio

238 days to O levels!

2006-03-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

238 days left to o levels af tmr. and although it might not seem like a lot of time, there will definitely be alot of crap. oh and i counted for my own schedule, i have prob about 85 days of no school including saturdays and sundays, 9 days after we leave sji, 37 days with stuff which willt ake the whole day, and less then 3 months of school days.. annd o levels starts on the 30 oct in case ur wondering. mid years are in may. chinese o levels is 29 may. random numbers and dates eh..

and just to clear some stuff up. what really happened was that i was at my table. doing my work. and then udbhav went to irritate roderick. roderick warns him but he still carries on. roderick threatens him. udbhav still carries on. roderick picks him up and tosses him over his shoulder, like judo style. all this while i am in my seat. and then the last thing i remember is udbhav's feet about to hit me. then i lose sight. when i finally start i find out my teeth were knocked out. and my tooth was fractured, not so simple as the whole thing coming off. so my nerves were exposed, the tooth was fractured into pieces, so when i reached the dentist i find out that there is still one other piece of the tooth that is missing, either i swallowed it or its in the class, and chances are that it was swept away by the cleaners. but not that it matters since it cant be fixed. im gonna have to do root canal treatment. and then put braces. and then when the teeth stop growing i can put bridge, implants or dentures. i cant even do a crown. and its gonna cost alot.

i didnt post all that to suan anyone. i dont blame anyone currently for it. i understand that it was not their intention for me to get hit and loose my teeth, the 2 front teeth at that. im posting this to tell all you insensitive people out there who keep smiling at me as if ur some kind of toothpaste seller. stop it. im currently not in the best of moods.

-why do these things happen to me?

Common tests results..

2006-02-28T20:38:00.000+08:00

not good. although i failed only one, i didnt get any As.. which is #$@ sad.. lets see, amath got 30/50, hist got 15/25, lit got 17/25, chem got 24.5/50, emath got 21.5/50.. sigh, first time i failed my math ta. and emath some more... haiz.. will be getting back physics tmr, which im hoping turns out ok...

anyways, kayaking was over the weekends. was DAMN FUN!! haha.. but also damn tiring.. then apparently gabriel had "first degree sunburns" so he didnt come on sunday, shannon had chicken pox, and shan was sick.. hmmm.. think they will be going with kj and the sec 3s.. but kayaking was fun.. just some advise to sec 3s who are going, PUT SUN SCREEN/BLOCK. otherwise ur skin will peel off like some kind of banana skin.. lol

and i dont know what i should do right now. to study or not. the major qn...

Common tests over!

2006-02-23T18:25:00.000+08:00

ok, actually it was over yesterday for me.. haha, but bio people still had their paper. so now common tests are officially over! haha.. and im just going to say that i havent gotten back any results yet. =) ignorance is bliss...

and i have been slogging off for my cca pre hike log.. and i really hope that i will pass. hopefully my efforts at staying awake until 1++am will pay off..

It only taks a spark

2006-02-18T00:17:00.000+08:00

to get the fire going. my passion for scouting has burned out. im not going to lie about this. i have just lost everything that i believed in. some people might say just rekindle it, but things arent always as easy as it looks.. do i want to? why should i do it? im struggling with my work, i could just screw my cca and just full steam ahead start mugging or play all day. that would be a fun life. and i wonder where should i head to? which candle do i want to light?

dont look at me that way..

2006-02-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

hmm.. when i blog regularly people dont seem to tag. when i dont blog, some people tag. when GOD tags, everybody also tags. weird trends...

common tests are coming up soon, and i have not started preparing for it yet. been out past few days, havent really gotten down to serious mugging. think im gonna do that. lock my com or something. and just mug. will that be effective i have no idea

and valentines day was.. A Beautiful Letdown. i like switchfoot dont you?

soul searching

2006-02-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

past few days i seem to have been acting like i was sec 2.. for some reason. im not too sure why.. but i tihink i solved that for now, im also not too sure how. im also not too sure why im posting this. but ya.. things are going to get better. it has to.

so hold me when im here
right me when im wrong
hold me when im scared
and love me when im gone

empowered in misery

2006-02-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

ok, so all things have been settled. im not going. for those who dont understand what im saying dont bother trying to understand. yeah...

1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 5 and 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 10 and 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 15,
blowwwwwww......

valentines day sounds kinda cool.. maybe? haha

math test was rather screwed.. hopefully not

random thoughts.

strengthened in sorrow

2006-02-09T05:20:00.000+08:00

hmm.. got home yesterday, did some math, then slept at around 4++ all the way until around now.. which is about 5+

this is just another one of those posts i write to entertain teachers who have nothing better to do and want to check their students blogs to see if they got insulted.

unpredictability

2006-02-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

i have absolutely no idea where my life is headed right now. its not really as simple as most people think it is, and so far only 2 people and my family might know what im talking about. and i really dont know what is going to happen to me.. and i dont like this feeling.. of not being in control of my life.. oh wells, i think i just have to carry on with life as any normal person would...

and valentines day is coming up. no comments.

yay 100th post!

2006-02-04T10:11:00.000+08:00

lol.. damn im slow.. anyways.. what can i say.. added music.. DHT - Listen To Your Heart, think its kinda cool.. lol bleah why cant i seem to blog anything right now.. hmm..

well scouts was.. like it always is.. its kinda sian to keep giving pep talks every week but they dont seem to get it.. like wth... i know my level isnt exactly the best of levels but hey im trying freaking hard to train them properly..

stupid @#$#$#@ internet

2006-02-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

bah, stupid internet connection was not working for like almost a week lah.. which kinda explains why i havent really tagged or anything yet... anyways, happy chinese new year!! i owe my dad like $100 due to gambling!! fun isnt it...

lol, anyway, chinese new year wasnt too bad, had quite a number of parties compared to previous years.. for reasons..

maybe i should respond to my tag board too:
[ed] hey how u doing? hopes your ok... talk to me soon!

[Ryan] wah how come suddenly u come online more than me arh? lol...

[smallboi] uh huh.. u will prob be taking your knots test soon

[nat] hmm chasing me out of my own house?? lol

[KJ] eh so that means i can have music again!

[dar] u seem really really bored...

[GOD] well what can i say if u really want to change u can start by leaving my tagboard alone.

and ya tmr is scouts and total defence thingy and nyaa thingy also. so fun...

Farewell...

2006-01-25T18:03:00.000+08:00

fair cruelty. lol.. yea so edmond has left singapore to go to australia.. which is kinda sad since he is one of the people i talk to more in class.. and quite a nice person though not many people think so.. hmm.. i dunno.. wondering when its my turn

and ya i have changed some parts of my blog since it is now illegal to have music on blogs -.-'' and some people say im kinda vain to put my pic up so.. erm ya took it off.. lol. hope its still good..

scouts tmr, knots test and others. sec 3 scouts, i expect full attendance! muster parade tmr also.. and sh, chin hao, marcus, aravind are all not going to be there... sigh..

3rd week of school..

2006-01-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

this week has been tired but fun. yea right... fun...

monday, tuesaday, wednesday stayed back for scouts to build stuff for all sec 1 cca orientation. and was so bloody tired by the time i get home that i only have time to do hw and sleep.

thursday was the cca orientation itself. and what we had. sucked. honestly. but thats also partly due to the fact that we had quite bad weather conditions, if not we would have built the tower and 2 storeys.. sad... but the idea of kitchen sheds was.. i dunno.. not very impressive? i really dont know..

and then there was the campfire, which as usual every year the scouts will have to prepare the fire. not complaining though.. anyways, this years idea was fireballs, as in 3. quite cool.. but the prob was that the pit was nailed together, so when the fireballs came down the fire couldnt start, and all that was burning was the balls itself, so marcus and chin hao had to go push it in, then constantly feed the fire with cloth soaked in kerosene and firewood. scouts job.. but overall i think the campfire went quite well

and i can say that i have gotten over the psl and psf stuff. i accept that i didnt get it, and i do agree with the choice after reading my previous blog posts.. and i suppose that my attitude at that time really sucked, so i can kind of understand why. i dont really have any regrets, although i just wish that things would not have turned out this way, but it did, and i accept it.

and i have pissed off 3 people in scouts this week.. not too good.. gabriel tan, daniel soh and chao hao.. for various reasons, i kinda shouted at gabriel.. and as for daniel it was quite stupid.. we were at tanglin cc and he said like wah my bi weekly got 52 eh.. and obviously he knows that my chinese sucks, so he was like wah how come im so good. so ok, i just keep quiet. then later marcus and chin hao talking about english, like saying english can get a1, and i like just as a joke tell him ya, english sure can get a1 right daniel? then he says **** you lah, im also damn pissed, points a finger, and walks off. im like wth? u wanted to boast about your chinese in the first place. anyway, my point was u want to to boast than u better also be able to take some suaning. just like u better be able to take criticism if u want to dish it out. and as for chao hao.. we were like arguing over the fireball. he said he wanted to put the sparkler on the fireball, but me marcus and chin hao were like telling him dont, because what if it falls? safety first.. and then he says no, its been tested, it will look cool, but we were like telling him not to take the risk, so he not very happy and then kind of ignored us the rest of the night.. sigh..

damn im tired. today was basically tution hw and tution and slack. yeah... anyways, gd nights, and i would like to remind people that this is how i saw things happening, whether it was really what happened i cant confirm, so pls dont come looking for me in sch and start scolding me...

a weird weekend

2006-01-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

this weekend has been.. surreal.. actually im not too sure if i should call it that. maybe just plain weird. that might fit better.

damn, i left my file in school and as a result i have alot of hw inside there not done, i have a form not signed to be passed up tmr, and not to mention i have no idea where it is. actually that was more of friday the 13th rather than my weird weekend. sigh.. weirdly, the friday 13th for the previous years wasnt really actually very un lucky, but i dont know whether its this year or what, but my friday just went haywire. see lah javier, your year...

and i was indirectly told that i was irritating in my tution class. which honestly i agree but then what really saddened me was who it came from. no comments.

and today has just been weird. pastoral attachment, i was posted to the 10:45 mass warrdening. with chin hao. not too bad.. and speaking about chin hao, sry if i got angry with u about the follower thing.

and here i am doing something weird. blogging i mean. for no weird reason. wait, for no good reason but yes a weird reason. hmm.. weird weekend.

oh ya, 423 won soccer interclass!! woot~~

Who I Am Hates Who I've Been

2006-01-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

change song! whee.. i really like this one, though im quite sure that it wont make it to the top of the charts but its still quite a nice song

differentiation was.. rather ok, didnt draw the graph for one of the qns though.. =(

scouts tmr.

Rainy Days

2006-01-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

im starting to hate rain. lol...

i mean its been raining non stop and my bathroom is leaking like mad. =(

and.. i cant think of anything good about there being alot of rain.. hmm, lets see, we can now play with paper boats in the canals? lol

rain rain go away, come again when its your day. and it shouldnt be yours right now.

good luck with differentiation test! dont be careless!

school so far...

2006-01-10T17:30:00.000+08:00

hmm.. first week of school has passed, but i been kinda busy which is why i couldnt really blog. actually more of no mood to blog.. lol, had quite a lot of hw to do, mostly holiday hw which i didnt feel like doing. =S

anyways, scouts is... hopefully changing for the better. yea. =)

i finally finished my commonwealth essay and my chinese bao zhang bao dao. yay. and my commonwealth is 1439. hah, within the word limit. lol... i really am damn sian...

searching for chinese articles to do the jian bao.. sian.

bye! selamat hari raya!

first day of school!!

2006-01-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

weird. lol. hmm first day of school, kinda cool, yea right. lol.... my math teacher changed, and i think that i am gonna fail math if she carries on with the speed which she was moving at for today.. haix..

wah this is damn irritating. lol..

2006!! charge!!

The New Year?

2005-12-29T11:08:00.000+08:00

hmm.. 2006 is approaching. school is starting. homework!!! omg.. rush rush rush.. i am screwed... =(

hmm.. what else to say? hope u had a merry christmas! hope 2006 will be fun! yea right... sec 4 life will surely be damn fun... lol =D

oh btw, i tidied up my blog template, hope it looks better! =)

2005: My Sec 3 Year In SJI

2005-12-22T11:07:00.000+08:00

wow.. im finally reopening this blog... and no, not because i have blog trauma. -.- dont even know who started all that but nvm. 2005 for me personally was quite a great year, of course it had its ups and downs but generally i would say that there were more ups than downs. let start from the beginning then..

1st day of school: posted to class 323. and i was quite relieved to know that i was in 323, cuz originally i was posted to 325. dunno what would have happened to me if i went there.. anyway, 323, the only ex 206 with me is roderick.. and from what i can tell i think he doesnt really want to be in 323.. but anyway, meet a few people on the first day who turn out to be quite nice friends: nigel, sai chuen, almeric, gerald (ok so there may be some exceptions). then there were some who i only got to know later but turned out to be great friends: edmond, balu, kai chuen.. and i got selected for prayer leader. hmm.. i suppose its cuz rod had his prefect duty, if not he would have gotten it again.

as for scouts, we were officially sec 3, and we were stepping up this year. i wondered whether i should keep to what i actually wanted from the start or should i change my aim.. oh, and aravind joins us in scouts from malaysia too. =)) nice guy.

and then there is the sec 1 orientation camp for all the new sec 1s, and then the campfire. as usual the scouts stay back to prepare for the campfire and so i decided to help out.. and yes seeing all my other level mates as psl did indeed cut me.. but looking back at my previous blog, i understand why i didnt get the psl role.. but still quite sore about it.. but then again no point crying over spilt milk.. so anyways i stayed back to help out.. the campfire went quite nicely.. quote from sean lee's blog:"everything went smoothly. firelighting was editted last minute but was still a big success. I brought in the torch (such a memorable moment you know) *self-centred*, passed to TL who passed to Mr Lui. and torch burn small ball, small ball burn clothe, clothe burn big ball, big ball burn raffia and doink into the firepit it went. Marvellous!!!" lol.. sean..

and so sec 1s join scouts.. and these 3 join leopard.. and they are: willie, samuel koh and mark. hmm.. i thought willie was another potential best sec 1.. samuel koh was like samuel tee.. lol.. and mark was just.. lost... lol..

so that was the first part of the year.. got through the first term quite ok.. TA1 i came in 11th position, made the promise to myself: TA1 top 15, mid year top 10, and final year top 5. did i make it? find out later...

so then came the march hols.. and also my birthday, so had a celebration at my house. first time i had people over at my house other than javier and rod so was quite fun.. watched hitch, played ps2, and bbq.. haha..

so from there was basically mugging for the mid years.. and surprisingly i did manage to get into the top 10..

then had my rme retreat.. not going to recount the whole thing here, if u want to read about it just check the archives.. but yes i had a great time during the retreat, it was very meaningful

and then came one of the most major things of my scouting life thus far: UTC/PLTC. i really dont know what to say about it.. but honestly i thought that the idea of combining both PLTC and UTC was quite bad.. because there are some stuff which is considered acceptable for the sec 3s but not for the sec 1s and 2s, and these stuff were carried out in the previous PLTC, but for that reason the same thing couldnt happen. anyways.. pltc for me was.. fun?! well i dont know what to say about it, still can rmb the times when i stayed up late with aravind to do the gadgets for les frere, all the change parades, and also will never forget the iron team challenge.. to say that the camp was not tiring would be a lie, but then again.. hmm.. the previous years were worse.. but then again, i wonder.. and then i began to seriously look at what position i should aim for..

and then came lltc, for which to get in through scouts we had to actually write a letter to the scouters.. but then i got chosen by class com so i didnt get in through scouts.. but that doesnt really matter since i did get to go for lltc, which was truly an experience like no other. the highlights of the camp being the walk from sji to st pats, the fast food experience, creating a PMS, which btw is "be myself" which i think i have sort of followed and definitely the community service which we did. yup, lltc, be the difference!

and then came voting for scouts. and finally i saw how things in scouts could get so ugly. and yes my blog was mentioned from what i heard and i dont think it potrayed me too well, but wth. and so i thought i would go for the top 3. tl/spls. so the top 3 positions came down to 4 people: sh, kj, trent and i. but sh trent and i would not be around for the stepping up ceremony because we were away at....

EUROJAM!! the best thing that ever happened to me so far. haha, might sound kinda exaggerated but it was truly the most fun days of my life. meeting so many new people, learning their cultures, trading badges, observing how other people behave, dance tent, concerts, celebrate europe day, did i mention meeting people? lol.. but as much as it was fun it ended quite sadly for me... lets just say that by the time i decided to do something about how i felt it was too late.. but london was fun! =) sorry about not being able to get presents for everyone.. wanted to buy some chocs from the airport but then as some might know there were strikes so.. and my @$#$ camera deleted all my photos!!! arghs.. haix... sad.. oh wells, truly the best days of my life

and i come back to find out that i didnt get any of the top 3. well, i live with it. at least i got the sec 3 trainer role. and so managed to take my mind of scouts after that and concentrate on final year, and due to the 2 weeks that i was away i was really lagging...

and so i started mugging, got a tution teacher to help me with the subjects i missed and also to help me with revision.. and guess what? i did actually make it to top 5 for final years! woot! lol....... >.<

and then there was npc. i had mixed reactions to this. i didnt know whether i wanted to be in or not. cuz we were all just selected. and then there was trent who was always.. clashing with me? hmm.. but then we managed to put aside all that or at least not let it affect us too much and continue with the camp. and our campsite was well, i dunno what to say about it. it had the potential and yet it wasnt. it could have gotten us championship and yet we only got silver. something was wrong. and the problem lied with alot of things, but mostly us. it kinda sucked being the only person who got the gold and then a silver. thats for me personally, but i wish the future team all the best and good luck getting the championship. redeem pelandok.

and so dec has basically been rotting and dota-ing. that was for the most part when my family was away in hk. and then they came back.. and so i am in a mad rush to complete my hw. hahas... anyways.. signing off with this message: HAVE A SUPER HAPPY FUN TIME CHRISTMAS!!! =)

?

2005-11-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

may be i should let some lyrics do the talking

Untitled - Simple Plan
"How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me"

am i supposed to say anything else?

Irony

2005-11-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

hmm.. such irony this is.. im posting my 88th post.. which is supposed to be lucky.. but.. somehow what i am going to say isnt very lucky...

serious money probs. i mean come on, i only get like, $70 a month?!! thats like omg.. and to top that off i have to pay for my own lunch at tanglin cc cafe.. which costs like $4++ each meal, and i have trainings like every monday, wednesday and friday. and i really need a life...

feeling frustrated.. whats new.. re occurring nightmare.. indeed..

screw it..

on a lighter note, i kinda had fun today, transporting bamboo from rgs to sji, by foot. so fun, i carried a 7m bamboo all the way.

nites.

First Class Hike: 10-11 Nov. 2005

2005-11-11T20:35:00.000+08:00

i. am. dead. tired. seriously. haha..

yea, i just came back from my first class hike.. which was honestly.. tiring.. k, let me recap what happened..

10 Nov
[7:00am] i reach school same time as lu zhi, so we lay out all of our stuff. gabriel is no where in sight.
[7:30am] gabriel just arrived, with some really un neccessary stuff. we lay out his stuff.
[7:45am] kj inspects our lay out. we take photo, then pack up.
[8:00am] all the hikers fall in, then mr kwnag briefes us about the hike, gives us our hike logs, and then sets us off...

thats about as detailed as it can get. lol. so i will try to write down the major things about our hike.

like after we are set off, we wait in the canteen for a while, then just nice the librarian comes up to us, starts blabbering some stuff which honestly none of us understood, but we just smiled at her... then we took bus all the way to chua chu kang mrt, then we took mrt all the way to marsiling, then started on our starting point. then went on to our next few checkpoints, and i remember having a really hard time finding chua chu kang cc.. we were like crossing the road over and over again.. only when we saw the sign which was pointing the way to the cc did we realise how to get there.. was really really tired when we reached.. slacked alot.. hmm.. other memorable stuff... had some problem getting the sec 1 to walk faster... so since we couldnt push them spiritually, we pushed them physically. so lu zhi led the way while i was at the back pushing the sec 1 on. as much as it was cruel, it got us to where we wanted, and it certainly helped. and honestly, if i didnt do that, i dont think that we would have completed the hike on time.

another thing was when we reached west coast park. we entered into car park 2, then rested there for a while, with the intention of walking over to the macdonalds area to rest. so yea, we started walking.. and walking.. and walking.. all the way until we came to this dog run place. and we were like huh??!! omg, we were acutally walking in the wrong direction!! thanks to stupid me.. so.. i apologise to my followers for having been mislead by me. i am truly sorry.

so we reached the place at around 8++ before 8:30 though..so cooked dinner.. then me and chin hao started on our log.. so we climbed up the pyramid since there werent any proper chairs or benches around.. so anyway, imagine me, chin hao, luzhi, and a few others up at the pyramid. then imagine some sec 1s rushing to the pyramid, saying "sec 3s, sec 3s, shannon is injured" so im like thinking "come on lah, the last time they said someone was injured all that guy needed was a plaster" so i kinda ignored them.. =S then they shouted again "shannon is injured" so i turned my head, and nothing in this world could prepare me for what i was to see. i looked at shannon. his shirt. was red. blood. i rushed down as fast as i could, then brought him to the pavillion, then tried as best as i could to treat his wound. it was a gash across his head, and a very deep one at that. at that moment, i really didnt know what i should do. all i could think of was clean the wound, meanwhile andrew called kwang, then i bandaged his head, then we managed to get someone to give shannon, lim chuan and andrew a ride. so everyone was pretty much freaked out after that..

then second day was very very slack.. we were walking REALLY slowly, and stopping at each checkpoint for really long.. but we still got to telok blangah npc without cheating at all! =) before 11! haha.. so then since me and chin hao reach there around the same time, we both treat our followers to drinks. so.. heres some acknowledgements:

[lu zhi] i really want to thank you for helping me throughout this hike, u have been really help ful, no sarcasm meant. thanks for helping me to lead the way while i pushed. haha.. thanks, i really dont know how i would do it without you =)

[gabriel] thanks for following me on hike, hope you will have more experience in your future hikes, and you will be able to manage it better! =)

Pre Hike Syndrome

2005-11-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

feeling. emotionally. drained.

hike is tomorrow. wow, best of times for me to enter into these kind of moods. lets hope that i can even survive it, let alone pass. feeling just really @!#$

Scouts Sentosa Outing

2005-11-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

heh.. had unit outing on sat.. at sentosa! haha... i suppose it was nice.. but honestly, i had no fun. =( cuz i was chucked all the way to the lost civilisation with chao hao to do the treasure hunt, which was seriously dead boring... wanted to go beach.. damnit... lol

anyways, im hoping that our level stays intact in all that we go through.

changed blog song!!
Where Are You - J. Roman and Soluna

What More Can I Say

2005-11-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. today was.. eventful? or uneventful? wait, am i asking myself or the people who are reading this? but i am also reading this so i am asking my self either way... hmmm...

ok, enough crap. =) today had npc training. was supposed to have pt, but then it rained, so we just stayed indoors and just designed our gadgets. yea man, we will get the gold! so anyay, after taht was supposed to go watch movie with zl and dy.. but somehow, zl didnt feel like watching movie, so in the end it was canceled.. so i was just like some dumb f*#ker with all the time i wanted out of the house(which is rare) and nothing to do. so i was like ok... then played basket ball with kj... haha, i beat kj at free throw!! woot! lol.. anyways, after that went to plaza sing cuz he wanted to get some big pencilcase... so we were like walking around... then came across this shop, which was selling wrist bands with scout logo on it. so we were like eh, quite cool, maybe can get for npc team.. but i dunno, i just gave them my number, to contact me if they had more stocks since they only had one..

so anyways, he went home, and i went to scout hq for cca hike briefing. so no one told us anything about having to pass our first class hike first... so me darren and gabriel went there and then we found out that eh, we have to pass our first class hike first. so was like whoa... major problem.. in the end.. they told us... sorry, but u all cant go.. so... the three of us will be going with the rest next march... oh wells....

anyways, tmr unit outing for scouts. at sentosa! =)

oh ya, happy birthday to wg. im still on time!

tired.

2005-11-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

very. very. tired.

we ARE going to make the 2 storeys for npc. HA. =)

im crazy. thats nice.

whats wrong with me.

nothing wrong. nothing right either.

this is getting abit out of hand..

but its getting into my leg. (nothing sick, just lame)

hurhur

i should do this more often.

whee

Are We Supposed To Do Things That Are Expected Of Us?

2005-10-31T10:47:00.000+08:00

yea, the title says it all. are we supposed to do things expected of us? is it a must? or is it an obligation? i really dont know whats going on in npc right now. i mean no offence to trent, but sometimes he just.. pisses me off... right, now everyone is going to read this and start saying things about me.. I KNOW THAT TEACHERS READ MY BLOG. and yes, i know which teachers they are. which kind of explains why i dont blog regularly. cuz somehow or rather what i write in my blog will be used against me. bleah.

mum's birthday tmr. just nice when everyone (ex 206 and scouts) decided to watch legend of zorro. so what should i do? i am expected to go with my mother, but then the rest of the people are like watching movies.. what should i do? i suppose i will end up going with my mom.. but im still feeling really frustrated.

changed blog song. Mr Brightside By The Killers. should have done so long ago. nice song. right..

NPC

2005-10-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

ok, so maybe i should actually say something about whats going on in npc. the original team comprised shih hoong(pl), karjun(apl) , trent(cook/qm), me(qm/cook), matthew khoo(aqm), luzhi(scribe), shaun yeo(a. cook), shannon yong(a. scribe) thats basically what the team was at first. then great shih hoong, apparently was doing pull ups for god knows what reason, and then his great friend comes along and hangs on him for god knows what reason, and he falls and breaks his arm. so ok.. no shih hoong, that is like... bad... cuz sec 3s already short of pro people, and shih hoong is like one of the best already.. so what happens? we go around, asking for replacements(more like begging). tried aravind first. he had to go back to malaysia. so ok, then we could try the qms. but, marcus has india trip, and even though he can go for the camp itself, he will miss all the trainings, so quite pointless.. then chin hao had his ipoh trip to attend. so he also couldnt go. so how about the secrataries? gabriel. cannot. work. that is a fact... i think maybe even he admits that.. and besides, he doesnt want to go cuz he has bad experience and dunno what reasons.. so then darren.. im actually fine with darren, he can work, but, zong bing says that he is a joker, and the way he speaks is kinda disrespectful. i sort of agree with that, but thats not the main thing here. the main point, is that no who could even come close to matching shih hoongs standard could go. so how?
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thankfully, chin hao spoke with my gregory, gregory spoke to kenny, and kenny spoke to brother mike. they found a replacement for chin haos ipoh trip, and he able to go for npc. which is like omg.. thank god.. if not.. hmm.. dunno lah, the point is that chin hao took over shih hoongs place. which is good.

so anyway, apart from the members problem, we are also having an attitude problem. is it just me, or is there no way to get people to work? hmmm.. i dont understand what im saying.. wow, interesting. anyways.. we have to get our attitude straightened out. fast.

Goal: Go For Gold!

confused.

2005-10-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

schools over. hooray.

im in npc. hooray.

shih hoong injured his arm. and he cant go for npc. hooray?

how should i feel now?

is there any guide book for life?

im confused.

and tired.

Last Training for the Year

2005-10-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

ok, not quite the last, rather the last one of the school term. so how did it go? let see...

half of the sec 2s were at ace camp.
out of the other half who did not go, only 6 people turned up.
the rest? sick, buying equipment, didnt bring uniform so decided not to come down, blah blah..

so what do i do with 6 people? i scheduled for footdrills. and i wanted to actually make it slack for them. not my usual self, but then again, normal meeting there is no ace camp which will take away half the level. so anyway, what did i do with them in the end? made them help us (sec 3s going to help at chao yang cip) pick kindling. so after that, had no idea what to do since footdrills with 6 people is just pointless. so lim chuan say let them play soccer. so ok, lets go street soccer court. in the end its occupied by npcc (some inter unit competition). so we watch them play, then decided it was really pointless, and then went back to the den. sat there for a while, talk cock abit, then decided on playing monkey. then went to the hockey pitch since we decided that playing around the flag pole was rather dangerous. i still hadnt changed out of my uniform at this point, mainly because i saw no real point.. ok, so maybe i was wrong about that. so anyway, then we kinda had an soccer match with sjab. wasnt very long, but got thrashed like 5-0. sad... then just nice the sec 1s came to the track for pt, and daryl was watching them. then he looked at us. we were playing soccer. which according to lim chuan, mr kwang allowed as pt. anyway, i decided that that was a good time to go change. so i did, not sure what happened after that, but then when i come back, i see daryl screaming at the whole contingent, more so directed at the sec 3s. so he questions me about why i didnt follow the schedule. i was thinking, are we like, supposed to follow the schedule no matter what happens? i didnt expect only 6 people. what could i do? i was asked to plan that on wednesday. so i just did what seemed more sensible. whatever.. then i take the level and bring them for pt. i scream at them, make them cheer, pump them.. my main reason behind doing that? trying to show daryl that i can let the level have fun and yet able to discipline the level. did it work? i have no idea.. so then made them do logs.. then made them change.. then fall out.. after that got scolded (kinda) by daryl.. and then talk alot of lame cock.. thats basically how the training went.. if i remember correctly...

and guys, could u all just leave what i did in eurojam alone? if things had turned out differently i might have accepted it, but u guys are just reminding me of how stupid and how much of a idiot i was.. so if u guys dont mind just like.. drop that subject..

New Song!

2005-10-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

hey... finally put up a new song, after the request of edmond. haha.. hope u guys like this song. well, i suppose this song does have a certain meaning to me.. go figure

NB Ridaz feat. Angelina - Notice Me
(NB ridaz)
Ohh I want to let you know
That I'll always love you baby
(angie)
Sometimes I think about
Everything that we've been through
And I pray that you would just open your eyes (NB rides)
I love you (I love you baby, I love you to girl) I need you (I need you too)
So please don't throw our love away (forgive me girl, Don’t throw our love away)
(Nb ridaz)
Since the day you and I snuck away to be alone
I knew from that night something special went on
It must have been the first kiss
You told me that nobody else in the world made you feel this
I felt the same way too but nothing stays the same
I'm sorry for the tears I'm sorry for the pain
You were the one that always made things right
I promise you this though you got a friend for life
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets jus kiss and say goodbye
Cuz I really cant stand the pain of seeing you cry
(angie)
I've given everything (given everything)
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me (forgive me baby)
I've given everything (yeah)
I loved you endlessly (oooh)
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
(NB ridaz)
All that's mine is yours that's what I said
Treat you with love and respect in everyway
You wanted I gave it need me I was there
Now you treat me like if I'm not here
I love you and I need you don't want to let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more I feel im dying inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?
I know I'm not prefect but I truly cared
So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there
Jus remember I loved you it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away
(angie)
I've given everything (given everything)
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything (yeah)
I loved you endlessly (oooh)
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
(NB ridaz)
I gave you my good and my bad
My heart and my soul,
My trust my money my time,
What more could you ask for in a man
Even when times are hard
I held out my arms and held you
Even excepted you though whatever weather
But now I feel it we're at the end of the road
Whatever we had now I got to let go
Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall
To cover my tears
Wishing I could replace all those wasted years
Of loving someone who couldn't love me back
And now again I got to start from scratch
But I know I've given you my everything
(angie)
I've given everything (given everything)
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything (yeah)
I loved you endlessly (oooh)
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

Results for FYE 2005

2005-10-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

ok, so today i got back all of my results. and i think that i didnt actually screw up too badly. i feel kinda proud of myself since i achieved a great deal of these results by myself, through my own efforts and work. ok, enough bullcrap, my results--->>>

English: 67, B3.
Chinese: 41, E8.
Chemistry: 57, C5.
Physics: 70, A2.
Emath: 77, A1.
Amath: 67, B3.
Literature: 60, B4.
History Elective: 50, C6.
...
Average: 61.125%
L1R5: 18

yea ok, i screwed up chinese really badly... but i really didnt know what to write for the comphrehension so i just anyhow chose a phrase and copied it.. but im quite surprised with my physics, amath and history results. was quite surprised that i got an A2 for physics, which i have been failing the past year. well, ok, so maybe some tution helped.. as for amath, i was all set to fail it. i knew that i screwed it up badly, but i have no idea how i managed a 67 after moderation.. and as for history, i was quite sure that i was going to fail too, mainly because of my essays.. turned out that my sbq, surprisingly, pulled me up quite a bit. just managed to pass..

but im quite pissed with myself about chemistry and literature. yea, should really have studied harder for chemistry, all my mugging for chemistry was last minute and short term memory is useless as compared to long term memory.. nvm, o levels! and i seriously think that i should have gotten higher for literature. maybe i wasnt focused on that day, or maybe i just felt like slacking. i dunno, but i should be getting more than that. o levels...

hmmm, im not sure what my position is in class, but im hoping that im top 5. but doesnt seem possible, since kc has about 62% and he is 4th.. lets just see how things turn out..

to all: may we accept our marks, and use it, whether good or bad, as a guideline for how much harder we have to work. o levels!! dont give up!!

School After OBS

2005-10-18T15:19:00.000+08:00

went back to school on monday.. honestly it didnt feel as if there was school on sunday night.. haha, sometimes i wish i was back in OBS.. so anyway, went to school, after assembly went to class, then we watched a movie! its like whoa.. "I Robot". watched it once already, but watcehd it again.. haha, will smith is damn good... so after that went to the hall, and yes, sec 3s have finally upgraded to the gallery! woot! lol.. so there was prize presentation (congrats to darrick and jeremy for getting the distiguished lasallian award and all others who received prizes) and there was the farewell of mr foo, who taught in sji for 43 years. thats a long time. yea.. also farewell to miss d costa.. wonder what the new teachers (if there are any) are going to be like... then i went down to the scout den.. and i had called for the fall in after school.. and apparently sec 2s dont read the notice board everyday.. ok, so maybe im the freak.. whatever..

then went down to the scout hq to buy a topo map with darren.. but stupid me forgot that the scout den is closed on mondays... so i just went to macs to get my lunch first, then called chin hao, who also needed a topo map. so we decided to go to beach road to buy.. lol.. then chin hao and darren were just pissing me off, telling lame jokes, the same way trent does it.. in moderation lame jokes are ok, but if it just keeps coming at u non stop, it gets really really pissing. so anyway, we took quite a while to find the army place (mainly cuz of them telling stupid lame jokes which kinda screwed my orietation of the place) so when we got there we were just walking around asking whether the shops sold maps.. so we went to the end and found this shop which sold maps at like $22! which was quite a good deal considering that karjun bought his map, also at beach road, for $33! lol.. then the shop owner said "ok, since u all are students i sell to u for $20" that was like cool... also bought a poncho and this pair of gloves, u know those kind of biker gloves, for $4 a pair.. haha.. its quite cool.. then we were just sitting in the hawker centre talking cock.. then went home... ya, thats about it...

~side note: i need a faster com with a better internet connection. oh and btw passerby, mind telling me who u are? i wont really bother trying to find out who u are so if u want to be known then tell me who u are, if not i shall just consider u as some nameless passerby and forget u~

today was quite eventless.. nothing more to say.. since im not going to curse or swear on this blog... =X wont say anymore. bye!

Outward Bound Singapore

2005-10-16T15:41:00.000+08:00

im back from obs! actually was back on friday... lol.. anyway, i had a really great time at obs. my watch was Cook.

Instructor: Kenn
Us: Trent, Michael Lian, Jansen, Joshua, Kai Xiang, Kelvin, Hygiene, Joey, Xing Hao, Mok Chin Hao, Terrence, Samuel, Bernard and me. (Yi Jiang too, bu he fell sick half way and had to leave..)

yup, thats us. haha, was a really great watch, though we didnt really start out that well. i still remember on the first day where there was some probs with the group, mainly that no one wanted to do things for the group so it was like just left to me and trent ( the 2 scouts ) to do all the stupid crap. so that night, kenn told us that he could also see that there as a prob aand told us we needed to sort it out. so we gathered in one corner, and trent started like talking and talking.. i added a bit here and there.. mainly about how the group is not functioning as a group, rather as individuals. after taht i thought there was not going to be any changes cuz it looked as if no one had listened. but we were wrong. we started to work together, packing our bags, rationing the food, carrying the tents. we started to share the load, that was really heartening.

one of the memorable activites was the high elements. we first had to cross a bridge with a rope hanging overhead to help us balance. than we had to cross a log, hung in mid air by chains, with nothing to hold onto for support. than came the worst. we had to walk on 2 metal wires, nothing to hold onto, nothing as support. in the end everyone used the belay as a handle. lol... but it was fun cheering people on and trying it out.

then there was also "The Final Commitment", which apparently only our watch and Raleigh did. =) haha, it was just basically a tunnel underground. its pitchblack. seriously. cant see a thing in there. absolutely. black. only way out was in, so we had to go through the tunnel, feel our way around until we got to the exit. actually i kinda knew it was gonna be short, cuz kenn told me to go in through one pipe, and i saw another pipe like just a few feet away.. lol.. what was weirder was that when i came out, there was no one around. kenn had gone off somewhere, so i was like wondering around. than remembered that he pointed to somewhere in the trees and said that the others were waiting there, so i just went there and found them.. hmm.. wonder what it meant..

so yea, i had a really fun time. but u know it was like the last camp i had gone for was eurojam, which was really really the best camp i have been to, so i was abit disappointed in the first few days, but slowly obs caught on. "To Serve To Strive And Not To Yield." the motto of OBSingapore. yes, memories will stay with me. will always remember this.

ps. will try to put up the group photo once we get it.

inactive again...

2005-10-09T19:19:00.000+08:00

going for OBS.. camp compulsary for all sec 3s.. so yeah.. inactive for about another week..

Good Luck To All Going OBS. =D

Reflections on FYE 2005

2005-10-07T20:56:00.000+08:00

k, finally going to talk about exams.. overall think i dint screw anything. then agian. did i? hmm, lets see...

[English] ok, think i wrote too long. well, 4 pages is kinda long for an essay right? lol.. had a lot of time for comphrehension, dunno whether thats good or bad..

[Chinese] arghs.. well, honestly there wasnt much to do for chinese, not like in previous years where we had to memorise like siao.. but chinese comphrehension open ended was really tough.. it was like just take any paragraph where the word appears and put it in.. =S

[Chemistry] bad. as compared to people like chin hao the top class people. hmm, but then again, maybe i should just relax, i prob will get an average score.. i hope.. really hope.. i think i mugged chem alot.. the most of all my subjects...

[Emath] both papers were generally do-able. except for a few qns which stumped me, but i shd be able to pass this one.

[Social Studies] screwed one of my essays. didnt study political reasons, only studied economic reasons for split of merger. not sure of whether my inference was right or wrong.

[Physics] tough paper. seriously. did all that i could do. but i really felt like sleeping halfway through the paper, i mean 2.5 hours is really hard to sit through.. and there was also the screw up with the distance and velocity time graph. it was like i drew the velocity graph, then read the question it said distance. so erased it then did the distance time graph, curve here curve there. then like half hour to the end of the paper eric lam comes into our class and says "ok boys, for question... change it from distance time graph to a velocity time graph" whole class was like "wtf", "#@$@$!@%@$" and "can we have time extension" he was like there should be no need for extension, u all should have done the velocity time graph in the first place. i means its like wth, get the exam script right before u let us take the paper!

[Amath] really. really. screwed. no further comments.

[History Elec.] just like social studies.. could do one essay but didnt study for the other.. oh wells... just hoping...

[Literature] last paper of all, so was just like dying to get it over with. quite bad mentality.. and ya, i think i screwed this too.. but was rejoicing when it was over..

so yea, thats basically how my exams were. just hope i didnt screw up.

FYE 2005

2005-10-04T17:17:00.000+08:00

English Paper 1
English Paper 2
Chinese Paper 1
Chemistry
E Maths Paper 1
Social Studies
Physics
A Math
History Elec
E Math Paper 2
Chinese Paper 2
Literature

ITS FINALLY OVER!!! WOO!

Blogging

2005-09-30T18:31:00.000+08:00

ok, so it has been a long time since i last blogged. actually no, cuz i have a counter of the exams just before this post. yes, the exams... its nearly over, but not quite. hang in there! wont say anything about it until after exams.. for now.. i think i shall say something about something quite contreversial in singapore currently...

~please be reminded that this is my blog, if at anypoint of time u feel that u dont like what i am writing, click that button with a cross at the top right hand corner of your screen or the arrow button labelled back at the top left hand corner.. and i shall start now~

blogs. an online diary. a personal webpage. a place to express your views. different people have different opinions as to what a blog is. my opinion is this: its a place where you blog whatever you want, but keeping in mind that it is on the internet and can be read by other people. i started blogging last year, before blogs were acutally featured in the newspapers, so in case anyone says that i created a blog to keep in fashion, you're wrong.

blogs are now coming under scrutiny by the government. okay, so we should have expected it to come to this stage where by bloggers are not able to say whatever they want freely. its not surprising, with the growing number of people starting blogs. im not directing this at anyone in particular, but isnt all this talk about blogs rather ridiculous? i mean seriously, people have been insulting others on blogs long before, but maybe the others arent aware of it, or they accept it as other peoples opinion. and come on, arent some people just being over-sensitive? call me childish or whatever, everyone has a reason for posting whatever they say on their blogs, be it insults to teachers, crude language or whatever. they are just expressing their point of view, and just saying what may have been on their mines, and they felt that it was the only way that they could truly express their anger was through the use of vulgarities. agreed, it may not be the best way to say it, but again, are we being over-sensitive? just accept that the person who is blogging it is immature and just move on with your life.

i dont deny that there are people who post such stuff just to be popular with others, especially since its "cool" to insult others on a blog. but isnt there a reason behind all this? could it be that things get carried away? the idea of awarding the most creative blog, if you ask me, is really pointless. its one of the main reasons for all this contreversy. 8 days having their worst blogs in singapore isnt really helping either. im a supporter of 8 days, but some times things like this just doesnt really help.

maybe we should all just reflect on what has happened and ask ourselves, " are we being over-sensitive?"

~once more, i re-emphasise the point that this is my blog. no, i am not trying to copy other people by creating a post like this. if this blog entry has no impact on you, especially if you are one of those people who slam bloggers, than so be it~

Update

2005-09-24T02:10:00.000+08:00

ok, decided to update.. after blog hopping.. clicking next blog after next blog... really nothing better to do it seems.. 2 am in the morning and im still not asleep, and also on the effects of coffee. im going crazy, thats not good. i havent studied enough, thats not good. im hungry, thats not too good... things looking quite bleak.. im unmotivaed to study right now.. dunno why, i just wanna have fun. NOT GOOD. need to find myself. fast. than get on with the mugging i should have since dunno how many months ago..

chills

relax

sure get a1

who am i trying to kid.

Good Luck To All With The Final Year Exams. to me too. im gonna need it.

Good Luck

2005-09-20T17:52:00.000+08:00

Good luck with Final Year Exams all!!!

[Shih Hoong] stop coming online so often and study.. a lot is expected of u.. dont think u need me to say...

[Darren] hmm, last week before we take the exams. concentrate for this last period, and just dont care about what u may be thinking k.. go for it!

[All] ok, i only mentioned shih hoong and darren because these are the 2 people who i know of that have major probs that i am aware of.. but anyway, Good Luck to you all, lets just finish this race and keep in mind, we reap what we sow. =)

Rushing forward,
stepping back,
please help us all,
Lord of the pack.
Amen.

Exams.

2005-09-12T16:30:00.000+08:00

exams are like, 2 weeks away now. starting to focus, but then now i start questioning myself: why do we have exams? and why am i working so hard? what is the point? truly? i find it hard to understand. what will it test us on? physics? chemistry? will any of these really be useful in the job which we get? what good will knowing how to do stoichiometry be? will we really find all that useful in our life? will it help?

but listening to my blog song, i think of eurojam. and i think of scouting. and i think of the people in scouts. all my friends. shih hoong, trent, chin hao, marcus, karjun, gabriel, darren and all the other scouts. they all are quite successful, and i dont deny that. but why, that is also what i have been asking myself. how is it that people like shih hoong, trent and chinhao, the 3 who also went for eurojam, how is it that they are able to be so active in scouts, and yet are still able to get top positions in scouts? and i wonder.

and i realise. it all boils down to one thing. attitude. attitude in everthing, studies and scouting. the exams test us on our disciline, on whether we will actually study. whether we do the right thing and prepare. as much as we hate it, its not so much the end result that we should look forward to, rather then the process of getting there. studies is more about the preparation than the exam, but of course things get carried away a bit but the main thing is, we should not worry ourselves too much about the result, but rather the process. same for scouts. its the attitude. i admit my attitude in scouts wasnt as well received as shih hoong and trent, and i suppose that was my mistake. but what is gone has been done. and we cannot change it, and can only look forward to the future. so onward, lets just push during these last weeks, and than let us bear the fruits which we reap!

there is a line in my blog song which says "Little do we know ourselves, the power that we hold!"
Remember, we decide our fate. Good Luck Guys!

Slacking...

2005-09-08T18:21:00.000+08:00

haiz.. just cant seem to be able to concentrate on my work.. i want to do work, but just dont feel like it. cant focus, keep thinking of.. dunno, stuff? my chemistry is damn screwed, really regretting not listening in class to tan choy pin.. now rushing alot.. and i wish i had my lit file with me now.. though i prob wont actually study even if i have it.. arghs.. just. cant. seem. to. concentrate. help.....

I take a step
hoping to find
the peace i need
to keep me confined.

Retreat from a Retreat

2005-09-07T10:17:00.000+08:00

lol.. ok, stupid title. back from scouts leader's retreat. quite a lot of planning for our leadership in scouting. also a lot of soccer. lol.. i have confidence in our level. ~~may we bring the scout unit to greater heights!~~ may we do the unit proud. thats more like it. =D

right now feeling very distracted, cant seem to concentrate on my work.. just dont feel like studying.. damn..

Off to Camp

2005-09-05T06:10:00.000+08:00

ok.. so i will be away until tuesday... cuz i got a leaders retreat.. oh ya by the way, my exams are like... 3 weeks away? wow.. lets just see how much i can get from this camp.. byez all... take care...

To the spammer: look. i dont know who you are. i dont know who u might be. but that doesnt mean that u can spam my board. ok, so u may have multiple internet addresses. but seriously, just stop. it gets kinda irritating after awhile, most people should be able to tell that it isnt me. so what is you point? i just delete your posts. just stop it and everyone would be happy.

Dark Days

2005-09-02T22:18:00.000+08:00

And so the dark days have arrived,
Where we shall not see paradise,
For during these times of need,
We often find we cannot heed,
The advise which our parents give,
To tell us all the ways to live,
Because there are the distractions,
Which gives us more satsifaction,
Than staring at our stupid notes,
Memorising every quote,
Highlighting important points,
Until what aches are our joints,
And so before these dark days end,
Remember, It Will Soon End.

written during my english paper.. lol.. i think i screwed english. =(

English End of Year Examination

2005-09-01T16:59:00.000+08:00

ok, so tomorrow is english end of year.. dunno why the school wants to push english so early when all the rest of the exams are like about a month from now.. i meanits like its after teachers day celebration, which as the school mentioned it would be nice if we could go back to our primary schools and visit our teachers. but, wouldnt this just make it more difficult for us to get into the examination mood? but i agree it is our own choice.. anyway, im quite scared of tomorrow's exam, even though it may be english and is a topic which requires relatively little studying. oh well, hope i can do well.

Good Luck to ALL with English!

Happy Teachers Day. =)

2005-08-31T23:15:00.000+08:00

yea, today was teachers day. so... HAPPY TEACHERS DAY! haha.. its quite true lah, a teacher's job is one of the most stressful.. so, hope all you teachers enjoyed this day, cuz its probably the only day when u all can scream and all that and we cant really say much. LOL. haha...

went back to henry park. yea, i really dont know what to say about my primary school life. didnt really cherish it well. not so much the teachers but more of the company.. sad that i was quite a fool last time.. still might be now.. but it was like after i left henry park i totally lost contact with everyone except for those who went to sji with me. so meeting up some old friends and getting contacts was quite nice.. finally doing something about the past.. lets see, met nicholas liang, zi rui, tsu hui, chien ying, wei wen, sheng yi, sharon, melissa, sing suen and some others.. sadly, didnt manage to have lunch together. oh wells, in the end me, kai jie, melissa and sing suen went to king alber park for macs. haha...

Just wanna wish happy teachers day to all the teachers who taught me, no matter what you people did, it was probably out of kindness, love, or desparation. lol... thanks to:
Ms Periasamy
Mrs Tan Choy Pin
Ms Ong Mei Fen
Mr Gary Sim
Ms Rosalind Matthews
Mr Rohan
Mdm Lily Kwang
Ms Beryl Ang
Mr Alvin Chua
Ms Josephine Wee
Ms Gina Tan
Mr Chen Ling Kwok
Mrs Seah Geok Sim
Ms Wong Wah Lee
Mr Bamanshaw
Mr Irwan
Mrs Uma Chong
Ms Goh Chai Ee
Mrs Toh Kah Beng
Mrs Tang

As much as you hate me or i hate you, still, hope you enjoyed today! this happiness only lasts until friday, where it will be back to school and all you teachers will get to see us students, and then start the screaming and all that kind of stuff again. lol....

Eurojam Gathering

2005-08-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

ok, today we gathered at tony aka june ren house to compile all the photos and videos taken at eurojam.. haha, really damn lame looking at the photos june ren took, trent acting like a hmmm.. chimpanzee? lol.. then watching all the videos on juneren's computer... haha, really brought back some great memories.. really wished that i could be back.

anyways, back to real life. Final Year Exams are not getting further away, rather getting closer with everyday. i know that have to strat studying but i just cant find it in me to actually start. like rod said "the painful first step" or something like that.. yes, painful as it is, it is neccessary for me to actually scrape through. i missed two weeks in school, which did cause abit of confusion here and there.. im still not very sure what is going on in chemistry right now.. and i am trying to catch up with other areas, such as scouting. yes, i agree that i am not a very good trainer, i am doing the best i can, especially when i dont have a trainer file with me so i dont know what the sec 2s have done and what they havent..

I stare in to the darkness,
Looking for a hand.

But all that i perceive,

is a rope's moldy end.

~I need help.~

2nd Week of School after Eurojam

2005-08-27T20:14:00.000+08:00

as you can see from the title, i still am thinking of eurojam. yes, it is truly an unforgetable experience, really impacted my life greatly. wish that i was back in eurojam with everyone, all of the singapore contingent, the same subcamp and the same people next to us. if u asked me whether i would go for it again, i definitely would say yes. such a great time spent there.. i really miss all the people there, all the days we spent there. i can even remember the first day when we touched down from the plane. we were just getting all our stuff, after we cleared the customs, gathered all our bags and we were just rushing from place to place being led by one of the eurojam staff/ist. then after going through what seemed like a maze, we finally ended up near some shops, and we rested. we waited for the french to arrive and in the mean time grabbed a quick bite. we checked the whole area and found out something quite shocking: prices in london are just like the prices would be in singapore, only they use pounds instead of sing dollars. meaning, its like x3 there. whoa. expensive. so just about everyone settled for whistletop's sandwich combo, sandwich, packet of chips and a bottled drink for 3 pounds. it IS expensive. this lunch would actually be the type of lunch we would be having for a long time.. so anyway, the french arrived, we boarded the bus to bring us there, then slept on the bus. lol. when we reached this field, we got out of the bus for a while, took a group photo with malcolm's camera. oh btw, the french, or rather europeans, have really cool hair styles. spiked and coloured! haha.. so different from singapore.. so anyway, got back on the bus, then got out of the field and the bus brought us to Hyland Park, Chelmsford. the place was really cool for a campsite. it had like, metal sheets on the ground for walk ways. thats was like, wow. then we got off the bus, and we realised that we were quite late, in terms of when we arrived. its like, almost everyone had their campsite had up and ready. flags were flying, food was frying, and everyone seemed pretty much settled. so we set up our campsite, the uk contingent next to us was so kind, they lent us their spare kitchen shed. =) if not, i cant really imagine what we would have to do.. probably construct one out of groundsheets. not a good idea. so ya, thanks again for the kitchen shed! then some of us started cooking dinner, the rest set up the tents. cant really remember what we ate though.. so after that we were like washing up, then we had some free time. this is when tony aka june ren told us the phrase "Own Time Own Target (OTOT)" lol... just basically means do whatever you want. so yea, i think we just slacked around. oh yea, indoneasians were going around singing songs already. haha. i think if im not wrong me and eugene went to the dance tent. o well, european girls are quite friendly. =D then that night i just fell asleep, without a sleeping bag. lol. i just went into the tent and then just went off into sleep. woke up a few times in the middle of the night, shivering and then trent helped me to get some stuff to cover me. thanks trent! thats basically the first day.. alot of parts were missed out, mainly cuz i cant remember and i dont have the time.. but yea, eurojam was fun! wish i could be there again! world jam is only 2 years away. ahaha...

to all the other people who read my blog but didnt understand what i was saying, nevermind. a few updates in school:
physics test- failed my heat capacity and latent heat test. 3/10. didnt study. bah..
a math test- i actually really studied for this test and guess what, i managed to pass! 25/40. not boasting, im just well, happy that something i put effort into has paid off.
first official scout meeting- ya, had my first scout meeting after eurojam and stepping up. training a level is quite weird and tiring. it really isnt easy trying to train at a level. oh well, its the first meeting, wont base anything on it yet, since it is the first and there were quite a lot of people who didnt go.. but if you think that i punish you for fun, please sort it out with me.

1st Week in School after Eurojam...

2005-08-20T09:49:00.000+08:00

my first week in school has been quite hectic, been trying to catch up with all the work lost, taking tests which i missed. took emath test and social studies test on monday. failed emath, then had a retake on thursday. managed to pass after that. for social studies, i didnt do the essay, cuz i couldnt remember any content.. haha. so i handed in a blank script. not very funny though. oh wells, later was told that it would be discounted in some sense cuz my teachers agreed that it would be nearly impossible to study at a jamboree. how nice! physics test on monday, amath test on tuesday. hope i can pass physics.

first meeting of scouts. had plc, patrol leader's council. david kwang was telling us that it would be sad that if you did not get the post u wanted and then dont contribute anymore. wonder if he was referring to anyone specifically, such as.. me? anyways, i think that the scouts unit is going to get better under us. =) i have faith in my level and me, and i believe we have the ability to do the unit proud.

i offically received my post of patrol leader of leopard. yes, having the lanyard around my neck does in some sense pay off, though it could have been better. leopard, my patrol since sec 1. finally taking over as pl is quite honorable, taking after zunchen, bernadus and eugene chum. i will do the job well. =)

now time for me to start my mugging...

Eurojam 2005

2005-08-15T16:50:00.000+08:00

what can i say.. eurojam was just a really great experience. really cant find words to describe how i feel about going to the jamboree. it was probably one of the best days i have had in my life so far. being able to just go up to people and say hi with so much ease was very nice. everyone was just so friendly, so nice. felt great talking to so many people and making friends. really thankful to be given the chance to go to the eurojam. quoting from kelvin "Through badges it shall stay with me, through contacts it shall be kept alive, Eurojam shall never die." or something like that... anyways, i agree with him. the people were just great. i want to thank:
leon
juneren
shihhoong
trent
chinhao
eugene
edwin
kelvin
nicholas
yuanzheng
hanfei

basically the singaporean contingent. oops, forgot phillip and malcolm tan and the people at the scouts association who helped with the preparations of the jamboree.
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will remember the people i met at the jamboree:
Yvette
danny
jade
owen
ian
adam
aaron
steff
laura
adriana
antonia
yachun
cianyi
christiana
anna
javi
bernardo
jenni
kaypax
giulia
sandra
valentina
zeus
teresa
maria
peter
ruth
alla
estella
yamila
alice
uasco
simon
marta
ice
sam
stas
mari
rosanna
denis
merce
tim
hannan
maricia
mariana
rusty
erden
nastea
stuart
leighs
tamony
jacobs
will
wiela
rosario
jay
eric
aleix
fran
ines
neus
twis
loreto
sofia
valencia
joana
amilia
sidonio
anparo
yasmine
carolina
janet
richard
ana cristina
dominique
irina
camilia
david
loreto
gina
alexandra
andreas
julia
jo
gimli
sysx
kasles
paula
rory
alex
rritta
gustina
florence
jean luc
rata
davi
lotalonia
paddy
aled
stefay
elvaa
laura
sophie
the uk contingents
the taiwanese
the welsh
the finnish
the holland people
the portugese
the sweedish
the luxemburgs
the romanians
the latvians
the swiss
the poland people
everyone at danube subcamp

and everyone at the eurojam! everyone, the participants, ist, staff, whoever. thanks! (sorry if i missed anyone out, just tag on my board to state your presence!)

"we have all come together, in peace and in love, to enjoy our eurojamboree!"

Away

2005-07-29T01:08:00.000+08:00

ok, so i will be away from the 29th july to 13th august. so wont be blogging for sure during those times. haha. dot wish to talk about anything else. i will be missing stepping up ceremony. but not that it matters that much for me now. sigh..

Evil?

2005-07-24T18:14:00.000+08:00

A university professor once challenged his students:
"Did God create all things that exist?"

One student bravely stated immediately:
"Of course!"

The professor then quizzed him:
"If God created everything, and if evil exists, and going by the principal that our works define who we are, then that means God created evil."

The student became quiet. The professor, pleased with himself, boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the Christianity was but a myth.

Another student raised his hand and said:
"Can I ask you a question professor? Does cold exist?"

The professor scoffed at his question and said
:"What kind of question is that? Of course it exists. Have you never been cold?"

The young man replied:
"In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is but the absence of heat."

"Every body or object can be studied if it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or object have or transmit heat energy. Cold does not exist. We have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat."

The student continued:
"Professor, does darkness exist?"

The professor responded:
"Of course it does."

The student replied:
"Once again you are wrong sir; darkness is in reality the absence of light, Light we can study, but not darkness. You cannot measure darkness. How can you know how dark a certain place is? You measure the amount of light present. Isn't this correct? Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present."

Finally the young man asked the professor:
"Sir, does evil exist?"

Now uncertain, the professor responded:
"Of course as I have already said. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil."

To this the student replied:
"Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word tat man creates to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is not like faith, or love that exist just as does light and heat. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It is like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light."

The professor sat down.

Who was this young man?

Why Bother...

2005-07-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

this week has been rather stressful on me.. me trying to settle problems with myself.. sleeping late at night cause was rushing to finish the half blood prince (yes, i have finished it) cuz my sisters are like bugging me for it, then me trying to cope with my time spent playing dota.. and prob the biggest 1 of all: scouts. i really cant take much more. i work so hard in sec 1 and 2. im not fucking bullshitting. i put in almost all the effort that i could put in. i was at prob every single gathering which they had organised. i was always voluteering for camps. but all for what? why.. i dont get it. where did i screw up? why cant i have spl? karjun apparently has a secured spot as spl. shih hoong is tl. if it comes down to me and trent, i have to say he is going to get it. i mean look at him. 331, top class. best fitness, very entushiastic scout. then even has a chance for exco. look at me. 323. 9th class in the level. so what if i had best sec 1 and best skills. its not helping me. i still dont get the spl. and i still dont understand. why.. why things turned out this way.. how could it have.. i put in so much effort.. and i see the position i want being taken away.. and i dunno, i just feel bloody confused and unapreciated. so much effort, so little reward. so i am probably going to get sec 3 trainer. ok, so that is good. but how? i would just be pl.. so much for me, thinking that this year was the year where traditions would be brkoen. and traditions were broken. but somehow not for me. and i still dont understand what is going on with my life. so much for recongnition. im just some 1 who knows a lot. thats it. no leadership. well, some may say that there can be last minute changes, but what chance is there for that?

and i cant keep my anger inside me for much longer. im ready to lash out already. my mum isnt quite helping. im damn pissed. i wonder what i would be like if i just lost it. just lost all self control. and just go berserk. wow, wonder what people would think of me then. who knows, i might just be what they always thought i was. im still holding on, with that last bit of strength in me. but i am ready to burst.

~~why do i am i always creating these kind of meaningless entries?~~

Maybe

2005-07-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

or maybe, i am just over reacting. like i always do. so maybe i am really arrogant and need to tone down. maybe. who knows for sure?

its kinda funny the way the world works. people are considered outcasts because they are different. e.g, adults think that teens are freaks, because of all the punk behaviour. however, if the world was dominated by teens instead, adults would seem like the freaks.. what is really going on now..

My Blog. My Life

2005-07-18T20:50:00.000+08:00

this post was put to this colour because it might hurt other peoples' feelings. please leave this part of the past behind.

i think this is the title of my blog. yeah, so all things here are my thoughts. M-I-N-E. gettit?

i dont need anyone telling me what to do. and seriously, stop spamming my board already. its chilldish, and i could go on and on about that matter but i wont, because that would be just gay. whoops, did i say gay? hmm... infer yourself what that meant..

So much, So little

2005-07-16T17:53:00.000+08:00

so much has happend since the last time.. it is a long time since i last blogged.. hmm, maybe seems long because of the things that have happened, not so much the time passed.. anyway, i was thinking of creating a poem to express my self but decided to screw the ideea. ok, maybe i just dont have the artistic side of myself. lol. anyways, the highlights:

interview with mr lui- went on tuessday. scouts and ncc land both on that day. each ugo 4 ppl. so ncc went first. chuxian, kaichuen, yangjun, martin. then scouts. trent, shih hoong, karjun, me. i was the last. and since every1 all had to leave in case there was a discussion of answers, every1 else left, leaving me at the very end, and when karjun went in i was all alone. got really nervous. so then came my turn. walked in, then sat down. the room was cold. so then he started asking qns. me, being the idiot, tried to portray myself as some1 confident asnwered all the qns fired at me immediately. meaning, i didnt think through my answers. meaning, i pretty much screwed the interview. bad. anyways, what hast been done has been done. move on.

~edit~
**hmm, if i could remember what i had wanted to write here i would put it up, but currently my mood has been spoilt. go figure.**

Scouts Posting

2005-07-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

hmm, i dont really feel like blogging abt the first and second week.. i mena seriously, the post below this 1 is like super sick lah.. can believe i wrote so long.. so i shall make this 1 short.. at least compared to the 1 below.. lol..

i really marvel at the scouts system of choosing leaders. they tell us to stay back after school 1 day all of a sudden, tell us to fill up a form about who deserves what post, then on that day itself they hold a potral leader council (PLC) to discuss the posts. then, now they want us to write a speech. which is after they decided the posts. so effectively, we are going to tell every1 wat position we want when we may jut be wishing hopefully and some sec 4s could even be laughing at us for dreaming... hmm..

That was just a worst case scenario, but it is stil quite a real possibilty. im just puzzled.. why now? why so late? and why decide then let us speak? wat we filled up is who we think is fit, not who we think should be.. there is a difference.. to me at least.. and i dont think that it shd be judged based on that piece of paper.. but who am i, only a sec 3, who hasnt stepped up yet so whose opinion isnt that inportatnt... haiz... watever...

~Top 3? TL? SPL? QM? Secratary? PL? APL? Patrol Third? what shd i go for..?

LLTC 2005

2005-06-25T08:44:00.000+08:00

back from lltc. had lots of fun. quite tiring, but met a lot of new ppl. was really a great experience. the things we did were really meaningful for a lasallian.

monday, 7:30am- assembled in school. they collected our wallets, ezlink cards, handphones and our "homework". then we get to noe the people in our group. my grp ppl are: ong chuxian, marcus seetoh, christopher tan, bryan teo, leonardo lukman, leonard brandon lim, timothy chua, donovan ng. we are brennan. then, as we finished our ice breakers, they tell us ."you all are now going to make your way to st patrick's, you will not be given your ezlink card nor will you be allowed to take any bus. only by foot." i was shocked. no transport to take us there. luckily they took our bags for us. but then we had absolutetly no clue how to get there. so we decided to just let whoever knew the way just lead. our group was the last group to set off, so there was a lot of pressure on us to be faster than those released earlier.
9:00am- we are released fron sji. we went by the mount rosie way, behind sji. then, we walk towards in the direction of cjc. we catch up with wg's grp. lothaire i think. haha. was damn lame. kept trying to lead them off course. was very funny. then when we reached cjc we cut into the school to go onto the main road, leaving them behind. then we met another 2 groups, eng wei and gabriel's group. then, we came to the junction which could go to thomson. tim chua said that there was another way, and we suddenly crossd the road, leaving the other 2 groups confused. we then went by the pie towards toa payoh. we kept walking straight until there was no more foot path, then crossed the overhead bridge to the otherside of the road. then continued onto the pie. we followed a foot path which led to a dead end, but there was a grass patch ahead. we decided to take the patch, but it was filled with lots of thorny bushes. i didnt get hurt, but chu xian got quite a few scratches. then we continued on until we reached around whampoa. hmm.. whampoa... so anyway, tim led the way. then came to a junction. tim just walked left, so we just followed. then in the end, we walked and came back to the same junction. lol. then we went the other way, then ended up at some place like quality hotel. then walked on to i think geylang. then juts kept walking, st pats people leading most of the way now. so we managed to reach st pats around 12:15. we came in 11th position. i suppose wat mattered was not the position, but more so the boning with our team. i think that it was this which really helped our group to really bond together. then had lunch.
2:00pm- after lunch had lectures. hmm, something abt leadership i think. haha, cant really rmb. oh ya. 7 habits of highly effective ppl. ya... mine was by sydney tan. he is quite a gd speaker.
5:00pm- had station games as a group. hmm, seemed like the games we were always with lothaire. haha. first was some paper plate game, basically getting some number sequence. then played some blowing game. LOL. we were supposed to blow a ping pong ball into our opponents side of the table tennis table. then was captain ball. but with water balloons! cool... totally... then was this sort of snake game. we were supposed to form a line, blindfolded, then the front person is not blindfolded, and is supposed to grab the sock from the last person of the oppsing team line. really crazy. haha. then had to use a wire and form a sqaure. not allowed to see or speak. hmm, apparently, no group actually thot of forming the shape of the square first. as in the corners. so we were the first group to finish so fast. then had this game whereby we were suposed to throw paper plates to create a bridge. first supposed to get into the center of a sqaure, then across the square. end of station games, shower time. and basically slack time.
7:30pm- dinner. then went for lecture. hmm, something abt lasallian. ya... we were then told we were given mailboxes and could write affirmation letters to others. then had supper and then sleep i think.

Tuesday, 6:00am- woke up for morning pt. expected there to be 4.8km run. Turned out it was raining, so in the end we ran up and down the staircase, then that was it. Quite slack.
8:00am- breakfast was nasi lemak. Quite ok la.. then had another session of the 7 habits of highly effective people (7hhep). now, told that we are supposed to create a PMS!! haha... personal mission statement, not wat u tink. i got a draft up. "be myself". simple, yet full of meaning. only i can understand.
12:30pm - lunch. then gathered in the heritage hall, then was "action time" actually, its dragonboat and ropes course, spread over 2 days at the same time.. i went for dragonboat on the first day...
1:30pm- set off for dragonboat in kallang. reached there, had safety briefing, then got into a boat with Brennan and Alban i think. hmm, was really fun,had water wars in the water. just splash the other boat as much as possible, using the oars or contaiers used for scooping water. whahaaha... was really fun experience, then we also jumped in to the water. we jumped into the kallang river. just days ago there was a body found in there... hmm... anyway, after that had a race back to shore.
5:00pm- came back from dragonboat, reached st pats. then played dog and bone. then later, instead of getting the bone to your own side, u take a cup and splash on the other guy.. haha... was really funny. then had showers and then free time
7:00pm- dinner, then we waited in the canteen for a loooooong time... we were just stoning there.. then alexstine, one of the facilitators was telling all sorts of lame stuff.. cant rmb lah, really really lame.... then i was just talking to darren abt wat was happening in scouts... anyway,
8:30pm- Heritage Play! ya, it was a play abt the life of our founder, de lasalle. very well done i have to say. it was very gd, all of them could sing, or at least werent out of tune. congrats to all the people who were involved in the heritage play! it was really good! oh ya, zippy came.. and chums too.. and now i noe where the "into fire" thing came from..
10:00pm- had reflections, then supper, then sleep.

Wednesday, 6:00am- woke up for morning pt. wah.. really didnt feel like running...
6:30am- went to east coast park for 4.8km run... i was like sometimes running with shih hoong and rod's group, then i ran with chin hao grp, then i watied for my group, brennan. so then just basically ran/walked with them.. chu xian had gone far ahead.. so we were like a group without a mage.. lol... anyway, then i decided to run again.. then they didnt want to run.. so i just went ahead.. caught up with nigel.. then at the last part waited for my grp.. then finished it together.. then went back to st pats..
7:45am- went back to school, then had to do some reflection... then had showers and all that..
8:30am- breakfast. then had some lecture... hmm, i cant seem to be able to rmb wat the lectures were abt.. =S oh yaa... some guy from a home of the aged came and gave us a tlak abt the elderly in sg.. ya.. then he also shared some stories... there was 1 abt a girl who was always bullied by her family just because she couldnt get very gd grades... she became like their "maid".. so she got so depressed she hurt herself.. makes me wonder... why... ppl.. do.. such stuff.
12:00pm- lunch. then went for ropes course... well, the ropes course helped me in more ways than 1.. somehow, in the ropes course, i realised that i wasnt really all that gd.. so i shdnt act smart... ya... anyways, had rock climbing (i reached the top! =P) then flying fox (here i learnt i shd just listen to wat the instructers say) then had abseiling (her i learnt i shd pay attention when they are giving instructions.. and a carrabeana, or however it is spelt, cost $68, the heavy usage type) then had high elements.. ya.. ropes course was overall very fun.. but useful for me in the sense of a wake up call...
6:00pm- reached back in st pats, on the bus ride back, every1 was like talking abt the next thing on the schedule... it was called fast food.. hmm.. so we were like talking abt wat it meant.. some said that we were going to be given our wallets and be released from sch to go buy macs or something.. others said it was catered.. then donovan said that it could actually be fasting.. meaning no food.. every1 laughed at the idea... but we shd have been prepared...
7:30pm- went into the hall, then they led us to an empty space for our dinner.. we were like wondering where was our "fast food".. turned out that donovan was right.. we were actually fasting.. as in fasting food.. just 1 piece of bread with 1 cup of water for dinner... all sorts of reactions... like wtf... omg.. all that kinda stuff.. so then after a while, reflecting on it, it was actually quite a feast.. as compared to ppl from developing countries.. who have very little to eat, prob cant even get 1 bread and 1 cup of water for the whole day.. so it was quite a memorable experience.. maybe its cuz 1 bread and water is different from wat we normally eat.. so ya, it was memorable..
8:30pm- went back to the hall. then had reflection.. then went back to our rooms.. then had group reflection.. ya..
10:30pm- had supper.. it wasnt very much more than previous nights.. but was enough to stop watever hunger there was... keep it away till breakfast.. so ya.. then after that, went to some corner with rod and darren and just wrote affirmation notes.. ya... then went to sleep...

Thursday, 6:20am- woke up, rushed to get ready for pt, then left for pt... again at east coast park.. somehow, wednesday pt didnt seem like 4.8.. was more like 2.4- 3km run.. so they decided to make it really 4.8.. and we went even longer.. but this time we managed to stick together as a group..
7:30am- washed up and all that kinda stuff, then breakfast then phototaking.. hehe..
8:30am- "journey with the dream".. ya.. basically just went to visit homes.. our grp was supposed to go to Metta Home.. some where in like wood lands??!?! ya.. so then went there by mrt.. and we finally got back our wallets and ez lin cards.. laming around on the mrt.. lol.. wont go into details… fun with rubberbands!
11:15am- reached Metta Home. Was quite shocked when we got there. They told us that they were expecting a group of like, 40 ppl??!! We were like wah.. there were only 12+ ppl there.. including mr wong and shaman.. so were quite shocked.. so they said nvm, then came the next thing. The clients had been waiting for us since like 9am in the morning!! We were really stunned… felt quite bad.. so ya, mixed with the ppl there.. sang songs.. went round shaking hands.. some of them are really sad.. very.. cant say pitiful, that’s kinda like looking down on them.. but ya, it was sad. So then we served them lunch, then we talked with them a bit more.. they aren’t all mentally disabled.. there was this woman who was doing long multiplication with like 7 digit numbers!! was really amazing.. and she got them all right!! Totally amazed.
12:45pm- left Metta Home, went for lunch. MACS!! Woot.. got the “fast food” which we all expected the night b4.. hahas.. anyways, after that took mrt back to st pats..
2:45pm- reached st pats. Basically slacked around for a while. Then gathered in the hall. Debrief of the Journey With The Dream. Got into grps, like mages in 1 group and all that stuff.. heard more stories.. I am really a lucky guy.. so after that had more songs.. then went back to rooms..
5:00pm- rushing for affiramtiion notes. As in really rushing. In the end, spammed the same msg to a lot of ppl. = very bad of me.. I hope that I can rmb all of u guys and write u one.. as in here, on my blog.. after im done with all this…
7:00pm- dinner. man was it 1 great dinner. buffet style. Chicken, prawns, fried rice, otah, curry, jelly.. lots of food. =D nice food… very nice. Very full.
8:00pm- we went to the hall.. then wrote down wat stuff was keeping us from solidarity with the poor. Then we tore it up and threw it into a dustbin. Then went to this room in the brothers quarters. Had a Passover of some sort. Very memorable. Went around hugging every1 after that. Was great.
9:30pm- then went for this trail. i think. Which just like showed the different parts of Singapore which we see but never actually realize. then we got back our affirmation notes. Thanks to all who gave me affirmation notes!! Rod, WG, Javier, EngWei, Joshua, Nigel, ChuXian, Leonardo, Marcus Seetho, Shih Hoong, Trent, Chin Hao, Marcus Leong, Darren, Gabriel, KarJun, Brandon, David, Darrick, Sean Lee, Jeremy, Donald. I hope that I got every1s name there. Thanks for ur notes!
11:00pm- crazy time from this time onwards. We just went wild. =P first went arnd together with the scouts singing stupid songs. Stupid me for singing stupid about stupid me. LOL. Heard that there was a strip party going on. (-.^) haha.. then alexstine brought his labtop to some room, blasted music, and plaed mahjong. Wah… craziness.. so after going with the scouts then went to McNally. It was a “refuge”. LOL. We were just playing cards, eating chips, but we were quiet. Really. the ppl above us were like loud.. then could hear them stamping on the ground. Crazy but fun time.. then in the end Wei Kann came to McNally and said that they wanted to journal in, so we left and went to do reflection.. then went to sleep.. it was abt 2 by the time we slept..

Friday, 6:00am- woke up, had like hangover.. lol.. not sure.. but was just blur.. then went for morning run.. damn, dunno why when i was on the way to east coast park, suddenly got stomach ache! ah.. so in the end i didnt run with my group.. i went toilet, which had no toilet paper. (-.-) dont think any1 wants details... so anyway, after taht was just talking to kenny(papabear) and we were just like talking about the unit.. and why he didnt really come and meet our level.. and said if we wanted a retreat tell him... which is nice.. but i dont have his contac number or email!! lol.. anyway, my group came back rather fast.. could see they were sweating.. donald made them run.. hmm.. then went back to st pats, breakfast.

8:30am- gathered in the hall. then had a long line of lectures... cant rmb wat it was about though.. oh ya, it was bascally about us being lasallian leaders. then lots of songs. then had a briefing abt.. argh, can seem to rmb. lol. oh yaaar.. it was our overall camp debrief.. with a picture slide show... and i look damn stunned in all the pictures i was in.. stunned as in shocked.. not gd thing.. haha, really, i was looking damn.. ok la, looked fat. =( lol... anyways, after that tidied up the class, then had slack time.. so just went arnd.. played games.. then went with trent to buy food.. we went shell in the end cuz we couldnt find the 7-11. then had the last session. we gathered in the hall for prob the last time. we had all our bags with us. then, we left the hall and went to the courtyard. there, we sat in a circle. then, we told every1 about our PMS. haha.. personal mission statement, not what u are thinking. =P so i now tell every1 my PMS. simply,

"Be Myself".

short and simple. but lots of meaning for me. we told every1 in our group, while pouring water contained by a water receptacle into a large bowl. then the bowl was brought to another bigger bowl. ours overflowed. haha. then we receieved our badge from the brothers. we went up to them. they said, "are u ready to be a lasallian leader" or something like that. then we say "i humbly serve" or smth like that. then they pinned a badge with the lltc logo onto our collars. we were at that moment, proud leaders of lasalle.haha. so after that we collected our bags, then we were like all hugging each other, getting contact numbers, making arrangements for dinner and so on. zippy came! haha.. then i was just like walking around thanking the facils, even those i didnt noe. lol. i also dno for wat. just said thank u. crazy lah.. felt happy.

~that just abt sunmmarises what we did in the camp. yes, summarises. i could have gone on to talk exactly what the lectures and all the short games played in between. so that was relatively short. =P LOL haha.. pls dont blame me if it is inaccurate tho, i had a hard time rmbring the things which happened. everything writen is all based on what i remember, not exactly what the schdule says. pls dont sue me if there is 1 mistake. LOL, ok, im really lame.. ~

now for the affirmations (this is for those who didnt receive a proper 1 from me during camp. if not i really have to type a lot..)

Brennan
ChuXian- hey, thanks for being the mage for our group. u did quite a good job. hope that we can always stay together as a group. stay together k. and good luck with all things to come.
Marcus Seetoh- hi, u were a very nice person. i think u were quite gd as a scribe, whatever there was to be done u did it. u were also quite a positive person. hope we can keep in touch. i dont have your email.. hehe
Christopher Tan- hey, ur affirmation note was quite funny. as in the square root of 4b squared. 2b or not 2b. haha. very creative. thanks for the note. hope we can get together and play lan someday.. tho i am quite noob at dota. anyway, thanks for being games master

Bryan Teo- hey, u were a very nice person in camp. very helpful, willing to talk to others and try to motivate them. thanks for being with the group and motivating us. thanks for being task master. and good luck with brisk walking. ;)
Leonardo Lukman- hi, u were a funnny person in camp. looked very cute. haha. thanks for being water druid. and hear that ur gonna star in heartlanders. wah, actor in the making. anyway,stay in touch
Donovan Ng- hi, u were a quiet person in camp. u didnt really talk much so i didnt really get to noe u. anyway, chuxian always telling u to do things just because u were the watchman was quite funny. haha, stay in touch k.
Timothy Chua- hi, u were like playing it quite cool in the camp. didnt really talk much but were always with your other friends. anyway, thanks for being the keeper of the chase. u were also quite funny on the walk the talk. and thanks for leading us on the walk the talk.
Leonard Brandon Lim- hey, i knew u since sec 1 cuz of legion of mary, but didnt really talk to u then. now, u seem like quite a nice guy. hope that u can succeed in band! and good luck

`Right now, i cant really think. its like 4 in the morning. wow. anyway, thats abt it for now. as of now, i present this entry as my complete lltc entry. it is finally finished!! weee.. now for sleep.. i cant believe this is finally complete!!

Holidays?

2005-06-17T09:16:00.000+08:00

hmm.. how have ur hols been? mines crap... been rotting at home, trying to play dota,,, but im a noob.... ya... then my mom was supposed to be in hk till next week, but she surprised me and came back on monday... so got scrwed... bah... lltc next week.. sort of looking forward to it... had enuf of rotting at home....

PLTC/UTC 2005`

2005-06-08T22:17:00.000+08:00

im back from camp. it feels gd to be back. to see things like i havent before. k, im bullshitting now =P haha... but camp was truly a great experience.. the freinds, te bonds we made, the things we did.. it was tryly wonderful. its all the crazy stuff we do that we rmb, like a kitchen shed nearly cathing fire [lol] playing wif black pepper sauce [haha] and all the stuff which shdnt be said online. =D haha.. it was crazy, tough, and yet fun. one of those camps which u u will reconsider many times if asked to go thru the camp again. but we survived. all the torture now seems like nothing, tho it honestly wasnt THAT bad, comparing to wat i saw from last yr PLTC. but it doesnt matter. its over. im back. we all are gone. strangely, im attached to the camp. will never forget all the ppl in the camp. and i cant possibly forget the iron team challenge. running up and down the basketball court of delasalle primary 10 times, doing 50 sit ups, 20 push ups, 30 star jumps, wheelbarrowing a distance 5 times, carrying two poles across a course as a patrol, getting water from 1 end of the basketball court into a curry pot, and doing commando crawl the same distance. it was tough. it was mad. ut we survived.

Thanks: [alphabetical order]
sec 4s- chum, daniel toh, darrick, dominic, eahy, eugene chong, marvin, wei yi and ALL the sec 4s who went to the camp.
sec 3s- specially aravind, chin hao, kar jun, marcus(fish, not png. = ), shih hoong, shan, trent. and of course the whole level. we rawk totally!! haha... it was just great.
sec 2s and 1s- aaron, ibrahim, jonathan, mark, willie. thx for just helping in our patrol. les frere all the way!
ventures- fey mun, zong bing and all the rest. thank you.

~now its time to decide on my post in scouts.

pre PLTC/UTC

2005-06-02T20:18:00.000+08:00

ok, so this yr, our geat scouters decided that the sec 3s need more leadership experience, so they combined the sec 3 PLTC camp with the sec 1s and 2s UTC camp. wow. smart... honestly, i tink the current sec 4s haf not been leading us for a long time. last year they stepped up kinda late. then this yr they are stepping down kinda early. meaning that i am going to step up soon. but, i haf to go thru this shit first. hope i can make it back in 1 piece.

Suaning time.

2005-05-30T20:28:00.000+08:00

k, if ur not up to any suaning rite now, dun read this. cuz u might hate me. (but u still will even if ur not up to it).

i had enuf. honestly, i dun tink that i haf any real friends to call my own. all those ppl.. all the happy faces. its all a lie. they are just tolerating me. i can see that they dun like me. they are just acting happy. wat can i do. im depressed rite now.

scouts is being a real bitch rite now. wat is the point. i dun see any point. why bother working my ass off trying to salvage watever is left of my patrol? why shd i bother? i see no reason. i dun understand y ppl dun want to do anything and in the end im the dumb fucker who does all the shti for every1. i had it. i see no point. there is none. previous camps, there was some motivation. at least there were some ppl who could push me to do things. but now, things just seem.. pointless. just hopeless. i dunno wat more i shd say.

talking about scouts.. if u want to put it in the number of camps participated, i haf contributed to scouts the most. fine. i dun really mind that. but am i getting recongnition? no. wow.. tl interview.. hmm, i dun tink i was invited was i. fine. my class sux. ok. so dun consider me at all. just ignore all that i haf done for the unit. the unit. wtf.

update

2005-05-28T01:23:00.000+08:00

hmm.. k, shall squeeze in this fast update.. wow, look at the time.. 1.20am now..why am i up so late... hmph. scouts. commitments. strees. pressure. alot of groups expect my group to perform. btw, i am from Les Frère. why does every 1 see me as competition? just because there is me and arvind together. thats gonna help a lot, especially if its only me and aaron who has turned up for all three meetings so far.. seriously, attnedance is like shit. the most so far in one of the prepartions is only like.. 5/9??? wtf... where is every1.. why am i the only stupid fool doing all the blardy shit? why am i the 1 stressing myself out when all the others dun give a damn? hmm.. points to ponder..

for those who didnt understand that, nvm. results for TA2. 9/34 in class. cool, top 10. TOTALLY unexpected. really. i didnt study for this ta2. but then again... maybe thats also wat happened to the others.. results this ta is shit. the next ta is going to be better. watch me.

Sec 3 RME Retreat

2005-05-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

Whoa.. my sec 3 rme retreat was from friday to saturday... It was a truly great experience. for those who havent gone for it yet, you have the option to read or not to read what went on. all i haf to say is that if there will be less of an impact if u noe wat is going to happen.

~highlight to read~

Friday: 2.30pm-assembled in lt1. briefing. then left for FMM house of prayer.

3.30pm- reached FMM house of prayer. went to our dormitories, left our bags, changedd and rested.

4.00pm- had games. organised by Bernard Teo. was quite fun. first game_ bring a ball to the other side. every1 must touch the ball. ya.... second game_each person takes a card. it will have 2 words on it, one in black, one in red. u represent the black and you are supposed to find to red. e.g. Boy ang Girl. boy is black, girl is red. u are boy, and supposed to find girl, and girl is supposed to find u. thats kinda wat happened to me. 3rd game_the person u found for the second game is ur partner. then u are supposed to "mirror" his moves. then he will guide you thru an obstacle course.

7.00pm- dinner.

8.00pm- gathered in the 2nd floor room. found out the theme of the retreat. Fellowship of the Weak. spin off from LOTR. watched a short movie clip. then supposed to create a skit. was damn funny watching all the groups. very funny. my group did smt like a royal rumble, which had LOTR, star wars, harry potter and WWE... lol..

11.00pm- supper, then lights out.

Saturday: 8.00am- wake up, then pt. wah, shiok man...first camp that could actually sleep until so late.. but pt was quite a bad... or maybe im just really unfit. =P

9.00am- breakfast. then had sort of like a puzzle game. v funny watching all the groups get the pieces together, and the results were really weird. haha..

1.00 pm- lunch. some ppl were really bored, so took a ball, played soccer. i had 2 cups of coffee. nescafe. felt hyper.

2.00pm- played more games. REALLY GROSS!! 1st game_select one of your group members. then dress him up for a beauty pageant. wahahaa.. some of them had like, only their shorts and a few strands of toilet roll arnd them?? lol... 2nd game_after the beauty pageant, now a waterbomb game. main objective, keep ur model in the best shape. my grp won. had only the skirt on left. really lame. 3rd game_k, this is the sick one.. take twwo bananas, stuff them under ur armpit, then have a relay, and ur only allowed to hop. then the next part was in between the legs. (-.^) just gross.

6.00pm- after bathing, changing and all that, gathered back in the room. then watched this video, taken from www.interviewwithgod.com . then had sharing/reflection. felt nice being able to tell some troubles of mine to ppl who i didnt really noe.

7.45pm- dinner. was a really nice dinner. the facilitators were really nice. then arranged the tables in like a circle, then there were candles. very nice ambience.

8.30pm- had praise and worship. then confession. was a long time since i had confession. stoned while waiting. in the end had like a mass confession, cuz it was getting late. wat to do, abt 60 ppl and only 2 priests. then had a letter from Jesus.

11.00pm- supper. a lot of ppl gathered in the canteen. then one of the facilitators brought a protable radio, then placed it on the table. every1 gathered arnd it and listened to the match between man u and arse-senal. grr... man u lost.. but it was nice just seeing all the ppl gathering around 1 small radio and listening.

1.00am- slept.

Sunday: 7.30am- early mass. celebrated by friar. then mad rush to clean up the place.

11.00am- left the place, took bus home.

~Thanks:
i would like to thank the following ppl who in one waY or another helped me in the camp-
>>Daryl, Serena and all of the team who helped get this camp together. thank you.
>>brother michael, sydney tan, j liew, friar mike. thank you for taking your time to come.
>>brendon, benjamin, kenneth, calvin, matthew, ryan, calvin, dominic and david. thank you for being part of my group. u guys haf been great.
>>group 1, thank you for accepting me as a friend.
>>michael ee, mark vincent and others.. thank you for tolerating me in this camp.
>>to all others, thank you for going for the camp!!

**THANK YOU**

update

2005-05-14T12:44:00.000+08:00

luv mi song now.... collide... maybe it might happen for me.. wahaha.. im dreaming =P

ytd had cross country. no comments. dun wish to curse and swaer on this blog any more.

got back these marks so far:
chem, 54 (27 for test)
physics:??(21.5 for test, not sure if other tests will be counted)
emath:41(17 for test)
History elec: 54 (8/13 for the history essay... then 12/25 for the ss... argh.. i analysed the sbq wrongly... why... last term i also screwed this subject for the same reason..)

not gd results. only haf myself to blame.

Lyrics-Howie Day, Collide

2005-05-14T12:37:00.000+08:00

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

confilcts.

2005-05-11T16:44:00.000+08:00

hmm.. james cheong sux.
haiz... that guy is an idiot... stupid idiot.... me and nigel took 151 together... from theesso bus stop.. so he gets on at the tanglin cc bus stop.. fine.. i leave u alone, u leaveme alone... then the bastard comes and sits near us starts talking to nigel.. fine.. i still leave him alone... then talk talk talk, talk until about cross country... then the ass hole says that his 2.4 was 11++ min... and says "better than john isaac..." im like wtf.... go to hell larh... ur a bloody tracker, quit scouts go track, then in the end u only get like 11++min..loser.. then i get up to get off the bus.. then the idiot kicks my leg for no fucking reason...fuck, then feel like whacking him back, then dno y i just said, " im not going to fight u in public.." hmmm.. i dno why i said that... anw.. later on the bus wif nigel, he toldme i seemed different.. very quiet.. ardh.. why am i wasting my time talking about this bastard...

confused.

2005-05-10T19:42:00.000+08:00

OMFG... I FREAKING PASSED MY CHEMISTRY!!! WOOTZZ!!! lol... wow.. i actually passed...cuz it was like, ytd tan choy pin told me that i failed... then todae get back the test paperin the end got 27/50!! wahhahaha... damn happy that i passed... considering that i was not doing any hardcore mugging at all... but still.. shdnt be praising myself.. oh ya, highes in class is justin, 37.5/50.. thats like, 75%.. wth.. a1 leh.. thats just for the paper lorh... hmm.. speaking of which, waht if u were put in a situation where by u noe this person who had his marks miscounted for a subject he failed. then u also haf some stuffwhich might haf been overlooked by the teacher. then, he decides to go and get more marks for that paper... what would u do? would u stop him from going? would u let him go and get the extra marks? hmm.. now in a dilemma as to what i shd do... haiz.. why do i haf to be put in this situation...

ITS OVER!!!

2005-05-08T08:46:00.000+08:00

woohoo.... its over... k, i might be lagging a bit by only posting this now, but nvm... so anw, emath and chem was on tuesday, a math and physics was on wed, then ss was on thurs... only haf this to say abt them: "Hoping For The Best, Prepared For The Worst... (well, almost) "

Promises are NEVER kept..

2005-04-29T16:51:00.000+08:00

well... the title says it all... been telling my self keep away from the com... i nid to study.. but i just cant get down to it.. dun wan to screw my common test... but.. just cant keep away from my com... i sit at my table, its there... then when i try to study physics, end up slping... this cant go on... wat shd i do... the funny thing abt the physics qns is that the sch standard of physics is higher than those found in the assessment books... so in the end when i try to study physics i cant understand a thing... haiz... wat shd i do...

FiNtAn RoCkS!!! :P hehe.. we rocked the track and field.. this is going out to all lawrence who were being smug abt them being first and fintan last: too bad. :P being arrogant... but oh well, wif ppl like balu and gabriel...

i prefer studying in a study group than by myself... it just seems.. better for me...

Winners Or Losers..

2005-04-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

hmm.. from now on, i am not going to have a loser mentality. ya. today had rme, so bro michael gave a talk about slavery.. decided that i am a slave to com, so because of that, i am going to pull the plug on my com.. that also means that i am not going to blog.. so probably wont be online till around after Common Tests, which by the way, are 12 days away..

todae had sports heats.. was allowed into javelin throwing.. but i didnt qualify. haizzzz... why... only like roderick, shaine and mark v qualified... so it doesnt feel that bad... BUT, i shall have a winner atittude, so i shall wait for next year.. wait for me... i am going to make my mark in discus throwing. :P

-It Could Always Have Been Worse..-

Finally

2005-04-14T18:40:00.000+08:00

yo! hehehe... finally ot a neW template.. whee.. i tink its quite nice... hoopefully u guys will like it... all comments can be put on the board... ya... shall now update on my life so far... damn, its been a long time since i last blogged...

i went for discus throw for heats... i tink im quite gd.... i managed to get a 5th.... which is not bad, if u include the fact that the top 3 were alr taken by the three throwers... so it was quite gd.... but it still isnt over.... cuz it rained.. so.. hmm.. oh ya, made a bet wif yu huai, $2 over who would throw further... and there would be an extra $2 if the other did not qualify... i qualified... yu huai didnt.. wonder wat that means... =D

FOunders day: FINTAN OWNED!!! yay... fintan rox... was damn cool.. we won like, almost all the events... first after first... fun...

Twelfth Night: "Some Are Born Great, Some Achieve Greatness, And Some Have Greatness THRUST upon them.." :P -taken from the play twelfth nite... hehe.. found the play quite funny... was damn fun.. that day, i left scouts early... so then changed, went to look for rod and javier... so met them at cineleisure, then nigel came...so had dinner at kfc... then watched rod and nigel play a bit of time crisis 2.. wah.. rod is seriously pro at time crisis.. he like, thrashed nigel in points.. so then took a cab to dbs arts centre.. and for some reason, mrs chong kept calling me and asking if i was morgan... -.- ... after the play, we went to a pizza place nearby.. mrs chong was alr there.. so she treated us to pizza :D.. thanks mrs chong! so we were discussing some stuff.. which shall not be placed here to see where ppl can read.. esp if ur a teacher.. :) then took mrt home wif nigel, javier and zhe qian... justin took mrt from the opposite direction from us... so i reached bukit batok mrt at abt 1130pm.. thot there would still be some buses.. but i was wrong... so i got a lift from zheqian's mum... found out he stays quite close to me.. hmmm

ytd was national cross country.. we did very badly... only had like 1 or 2 ppl who got into top 20... and it was top 20, not top 10.... haiz.. damn sad... then for cip scouts hardly did aanything.. at least my job was slack.. dno abt the rest... me, chin hao and some others were supposed to be runners for the results sheet... in the end we only ran to get some first aiders from pierce.. thats it.. was damn slack... haiz....

todae, nth much has happend.... funally uploaded this new template... hope its nice.. dun tink im going to change it for a while... ANY comments pls post it on my tag board.... ya... and ejoy the music.. bYe!

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2005-04-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

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update

2005-04-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

hi... seriousl havent blogged for a long time... so anw... some of the major events are as follows:

shot put heats- there were 11 participants, so 3 were eliminated to get the top 8. sadly, justin was one of the lowest... i qualifed for the finals, but was like, 7th postition..

friday- HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!! wahhaha, we were so evil... we played a trick on mrs chong... we like turned off all of the lights, then made it seem as if no one was in class... so then we saw all the ppl gathering outside our class... heard mrs chong talking abt her love hate realtionship wif machines... then after abt 10 mins, decided to open the windows and the shouted happy april fools... haha... standard joke but was still funny...
-was also photo taking. took photo wif the legion of mary [even tho im a slping member :S] and scouts... hehe.. was like among the top row for both... hehe... so cool... hope next year i can sit down for photo taking... :P
-scouts was quite ok... had more of footdrills.. more screwing.. hmm.. tink abt it... the sec 3s are stepping up in 3 months time... is that scary or wat... didnt even realise it was so soon... speaking of steppin up... lltc... i haf to write in a letter for scouts... if i want to go... but shd i? do i deserve to write in?? after all, there are rumours that the reason that we haf to write in is becuz some ppl had actaully complained abt the choosing of psl... hmmm.. (-.^)

saturday- celebrated nat's b dae... went to a this nice brazillian restaurant... the food was nice.... ya... man, sam is like.. tall... she is only like sec 1 and alr 1.78 liddat liao... hmm... oh well... HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAT!

todae- family problems. dun want to discuss. my mom says she wants to send me for some hypnotism course... meant to boost self confidence and taht kinda stuff... i dun want to go... but she forces me to. wat the hell.. gave in to her. was rushing math trail. btw, i tink my grp is quite screwed for math trail... ya... thats it... hope tmr omf will allow us to apss up during recess... k.. nitez.. need to slp and pack bag liao...

oh ya, pope John Paul the 2nd died on saturday, 9.27pm according to roman time.. huys, pls pray for him... may his soul rest in peace...

Holy Week

2005-03-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

hmm.. this holy week actually hasnt really been that holy for me... esp wif ppl like gary screwing my life... wth... anyway... Maundy Thursday i went for mass, then had to help sell some shirts.. saw mark v. (wait, i couldnt possibly haf.. :S ..hehe )...then went home... didnt stay for vigil.. Gd Friday was spent mostly at home, stoning away... i can actually count wat i ate... 4 slices of plain bread, the communiun(well, it is the Bread Of Life), and some sort of like a brownie which i bought from my church... oh well... in the afternoon i went for mass, then stations of the cross, and then night prayer... slept at arnd 10.30.. yay, i managed not to play any com or watch any tv on friday... well.. it was quite difficult... considering i haf sisters who were just playing and watching tv the whole day... they dont really seem to too invovled on holy wekk.. but wat can i say... holy saturday had to go for some stupid badge patch thing... in bishan.. at 9.. had to get there my self.. so was kinda rushing.... then when i get there, they suddenly say that it was starting at 10.. so was like wth... anyway... after that all we did was look at badges, scarfs and woggles... talking abt woggle... mi and marcus shared a hand made woggle... $2... made of speaker cables... lol.. todae went over to neighbour's house for lunch.. hehe... then went for mass.. yeah.. thats kind of how my week was.. well, now its the season of easter! can eat meat on fridays without a uilty consince.. :S ya, i noe im not a very practising catholic... not gd... oh well... congrats to Roderick, Geovann and Daniel Toh and a few others for getting baptised this easter.. just haf this to say.. WELCOME TO THE FAMILY!

Gd Fri

2005-03-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

hmm.. tmr is gd friday.. a day of absitnence.. so wont be online... ya... whee...

My birthday..

2005-03-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

hmm.. it was my birthday todae. so? so wat if it was my b dae.. it wasnt any different from any other fucking day... i wasnt any happier... and things werent any much better.. yes, some well wishes, (thx) , but still... some how, my life is just getting soo... confusing. why.. they say that ur b dae is supposed to be ur happiest day of the year.. that didnt really show... why? cuz of fucking idiots from my past and present. yah, so i wasnt really that strong, ok, so i came across as some 1 who was weak and could be bullied, but that was last time wasnt it. things change. i have a past i dun want every1 to noe, every1 probably has a past that they dun want others to noe.. we all have our own secrets.. cant we keep it that way? its cuz of retards who dun respect other ppl.. thats wat makes all this shit just so.. screwed up.

[gary] note wat font i used.. shows wat kind of person he is.. and his brain size.. almost invisible... nothing.. wish i could just crush it like that... but why.. or why not?

[gabriel] look, if u haf a problem wif me, then fine. wateva. just leave me and wat happened in the past alone. just shut up. fuck off. u dun need to spread to the whole world wat u tink u noe. just shut up.

hai.. ironic isnt it.. that i haf to do this kind of stuff on my b dae.. oh well.. shd be like wat was writen for the stations of the cross , smth along the lines of: help us not to expect pity from others.. so yeah.. be strong. live strong. yeah.. wth..

{my life is confusing.}

Darrick's CCA hike..

2005-03-20T10:41:00.000+08:00

wee.. last nite came back from Darrick's CCA hike... went as a follower... along wif gabriel and trent.. ya... was quite fun... but tiring... but i felt quite bad...

7.15am, 1st day: was the time i was suposed to be ready and darrick's dad was picking me up... in the end i was still asleep... my alarm rang... i turned it off andd went back to sleep... felt real bad... tried to get ready asap... then went off... felt quite bad...
7.45am, 1st day: time we reached scout hq... we werent late... thankfully... but still felt quite bad...
8am:we went to the hall on the 3rd floor to set up our lay out... we were just about done when they sudddenly said bring ur layout down stairs... was like wtf... so we borught it done re did our layout and waited for inspection...
9am: inspection was done... they asked us for our parents contact no. and our ic number... which i thot was quite pointless... so we set off for our staritng point...
6.15pm: reached west coast park... sleeping point... so we set up our tent... cooked dinner... did all the shit... then i was left to guard the tent... was damn boring... then midway, some of the ppl in charge came and inspected us... then they asked like wat was our starting point, wat time we reach, was carrying the tent heavy... hmm.. seems like they tink we cheated... oh well... went to sleep at abt 11...
12 midnight:woke up, antoher inspection ... then after that let trent go to the tent and sleep... while i went to darrick and gabriel... who were doing his hike log at that time... so went to help darrick wif his log... was holding the torch.... torchbearer??!! so anyway... after that we saw two police cars... then was like wtf?? wat did we do.. but we just contitnued... then they walked over to us... then asked us,"wat are u all doing??" we were like"oh,we're scouts, doing cca hike.. " then they ask us whther got permit... tell us go to sleep... blah blah... so ya... we didnt get into any trouble.. after that went to slp...
1.40am, 2nd day: fell asleep..
6am, 2nd day: woke up... felt quite tired... then we were playing a lot... throwing bars and myojo packs around... playing wif water bottles... gosh... really childish...
7.45am: left west coast park... went on to NUH...
10.45am: finished hike at PSA building.. happy! got starbucks chocalate... yums... darrick paid for like half of it... then we took taxi to harbourfront..
11.30am: reached harbourfront... went to macs for lunch... darrick paid for my meal... felt bad.. . so gave the money to trent... hmm... felt like i was at least paying for it?? oh well... then we did his log till abt 2.30... then left harbourfront to go to bishan...
3.15am: reached bishan... went to scout hq... saw that a lot of ppl had coloured their sketches.. so last minute we rushed to colour... while darrick got some more details for the description...
6.00pm: passed up the hike log... =)... tink darrick has got a gd chance of passing the hike log... gd luck wif ur log k Darrick...

so that was the hike... i spent nearly all my money... some of it buying patrol locker equipment... grr... so tmr gonna get money from treasurer... rite now haf only like less than $2 for THE REST OF THE MONTH!!.. wth... will haf to borrow a lot i tink.... oh ya rod, im sry.. but i dun tink i can get u ur b dae present yet... real sry.. but i really haf no $$.. sry.. if u can wait till next month, then i can gif... but rite now really no money...

My B'dae Celebration!

2005-03-20T10:30:00.000+08:00

hey.... celebrated my b dae on 17th of march.. well... iit was quite fun... abt the best i have had before... for me, i tink there were actually a lot of ppl... abt 8 ppl came: rod, sai chuen,ht, kev, engwei, shih hoong, kai jie, janan.. not a lot but hey, i havent had that many ppl come to my house before... in fact, its the first other than rod and javier... it was quite fun... watched hitch.. played a bit of ps2... had a bbq... watched more tv... got some presents... thx for all... btw, i dun need any presents, and i haf no particular item that i want, so u dun haf to give.. but if u really insist, u dun need to get anything expensive or rack ur brain tinking of wat i will like becuz its the thot that counts... k.. =)

Jobweek/ Legion Camp

2005-03-16T09:46:00.000+08:00

heys... came back from camp on monday nite... was damn tired... first day went to 6th avenue wif ibrahim... i got abt $94... then wanted to play lan... so went to coro... but all booked... so then took bus to IRC... but halfway decided to stop.. got off at abt newton mrt.... then took bus back to sch... was like wth?? wasted so much time and ez link money... so went back to sch... then saw **THAT -WHICH -MUST -NOT -BE NAMED** ... lol... so anyway... saw darrick and gabriel they went to talk to ** in the canteen... while me and ibrahim went to the squash court instead... after a while, decided we waited long enuf... so went to sec 1 block where they were.. then we were like laming arnd... lol... so total for the first day was $100 (i added that extra to make it...)

2nd day had pt in the morning... having pt is a real stupid idea... esp when its under ^^ ... the theory is that its supposed to wake us up... but practically, it just makes us more tired... stupid idea... so anyway.... went to bukit timah this time... at ht hse down there... total for that area was $125.. :D wahhahaha... quite high considering others got like 20, 30.. hehe... then that day went to ht hse.. watch him play dota and d2... lol... we were like slacking lor... then at nite went over to legion camp.. was damn lame lor actually... all legion members were supposed to go for the camp.. then i thot gregory didnt allow me... then in the end i find out that he only didnt allow me to leave earlier.. so i was like wth... that day i got sunburn on my neck lor... cld haf been slacking... so anyway... went to the grotto... tried to help a bit... but wasnt really much help.. so in the end fell asleep on the ground... woke up a while later... then had some supper, then went to the class rooms to put away bags... so we had sharing.. didnt realise that so many ppl had actually joined olgc... wow.. really amazing... after that we went to esso... after we returned, was talking to ##... was quite shocked by wat he said... idun wish to name this person mainly to kinda protect his privacy... but ya.. he told me that his life was really screwed up.. he was smoking, not talking to his family, having problems... i just hope he is ok... so slpt wif the legion ppl (not wat tink..)...

so woke up at arnd 7.30... saw the scouts doing pt... oh well... felt quite bad.. but also relieved... heard so storys that ** was shouting at every1, cuz they ran 6 rounds... the ** was going like "ARE U TIRED??!!" smth like that... lol... ** now has a reputation for being a gay and a loser and a control freak... but we all dno who ** is now do we... shhhh... so anyway... 3rd day.. not many places left... so went to jonathan david's place to try that area again... i managed to get abt $45 by abt half day... so cnot bad lah... then went to his house.. ~~slacked the day away... playing xbox...~~ so anyway... went back to sch.. had dinner... then closing ceremony.. then left.. flying fish as usual highest... trent was by right the top earner but 00 used his own money to increase his earnings... shall not say who.. but 00 is from flying fish.. oh well... wat is the world coming to.. so thats abt it... ya.... typed so much...

pre- job week...

2005-03-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

hmm... to dae had ptm.. i dun really noe wat periasamy said to my mom.. but i tink wasnt anything bad... so anyway... after that took bus to tution becoz tmr got jobweek camp, so cannot go... so i went todae for makeup lesson... so aniwae.. i took 170... then cuz i gave my ez card to my sis to top up, i didnt have it wif me... so i paid by coins... then i put in 60 cents.. the fare is 55 cents for students... BUT... the @#*! bus driver suddenly looked at me... i looked at him.. he asks me why i gave only half price... i tell him that im a student... then he asks for my id... i tell him i dun haf it... he says no id then not half price... i was like wtf.... wtfwtfwtf.... so i just give the money to the @#*! driver... i was like tinking ," IF i actually had my id wif me, wldnt i haf like used my ez link instead of pay by cash??!!" ... a*s*o*e....

tmr got job week camp... target to earn: $600+... ambitious yes.... thats abt 200 a day... but will go for it... hmm... then sunday is legion camp.. which i had paid for the camp fees... BUT gregory said he doesnt want me to go... so fine.. wateva... but do i get back my $$?... aniwaes wont be back till monday nite... so gd nite...

The End of Term 1 '05

2005-03-10T16:04:00.000+08:00

hmmm... so we come to the end of term 1 2005... generally i tink it passed my quite well... not much of teasing or watever... so it was gd... also got a new class.. new frens... new results... new subjects.... blahblah.... anyways... my results are as follows:

English-57, c5 (wtf... periasamy is like bloody f* strict lah... comphre can get like 7/25... then vocab test can get lie 4/10... wtf... then i still dn see y i only got 11.8 for my presentation...)
A. Math-60, b4 (haiz... quite sad... even tho i passed, i still tink i didnt do well... i dno.. maybe cuz i was really careles... but we must learn to accept, move on and score!)
E. math-78, A1 (hmm... this is 1 of my 2 A1s... not bad.. but cld really haf been better... )
Chinese- 54, c6 (well.... at least i passed.. considering i failed the test itself... 43/100... so to pass is quite a relief.. in a weird way.. )
Chemistry-68,b3 (hmm... not too bad.. didnt really study for the test.. it was avtually quite easy to be honest... )
Physics-80, A1 (hehe.. my other A1... i tink it is quite a gd grade... but i dno how i got so high when quite a lot of others actually failed... oh well... then it was kinda funny... when the report paper cmae out, they put that i had only 26... i was like wtf??!!... lol.. but got it changed in the end...)
Literature-66,b3 (hmm im improving.. thats a gd thing... all thing start small... yeah rite... anyway... im kinda satisfied wif these marks...)
History elec.-43, e8 (... i fell damn sad abt this... cuz my first test, an inference test, i had the wrong inference, so in the end i only got 2/10 for that particular test... sad... and i got 13/20 for the other... sad... i failed a subject...)

so that is basically all my marks for this term... hmm... average shd be 63.25%, 11th position... next term must aim for top ten, then after that top 5... weee.... must go for it... apart from studies, scouts has been kinda ok... a bit pissing at times... but other than that ok lar... so thats my summary of this term....

[tmr ptm, i dno wat periasamy will say abt me to my mum... hope nth bad...)

update.. again...

2005-03-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

another update... nth has been happening... havent got back all my marks yet... so far 1 failure, 2 a1, some bs... cant really remember... past few days have been spent wasting my time away... dno y, i always waste my weekends away when its the perfect time to study...

For those who are going to my birthday, its on the 17th of March, thursday. schedule is not confirmed, but will be smth like this. come to my house at 2pm. no lunch will be provided. then from 2-6 will be probably like playing soccer or ps or watever la... pls bring ps or xbox if u haf k... my hse only got com.... so at abt 6 will be barbeque. then after barbeque go home watever time u want... probably will be smth like this... so ya... thats abt it... niteZZZ.

haiz... swimming carnival..

2005-03-05T10:12:00.000+08:00

haiz.. ytd was swimming carnival.. so i shall split it up into 3 parts

School: not much happened.. but. i did get back my social studies paper... i got 13... which is not so bad... but then the calculation for elective humans was really crappy... the first history test times 5 and this test times 2.5 ... so after the claculation, guess how much i got? 43. yes, i failed. cuz the first test i got only 2/10. which really sux. im probably gonna fail chinese too.. and a maths i got 61... haiz... aniwae, ttodae for maths, omf gave us some maths sums to do... whee... i cld do all the qns... but not in time.. so i tink i only got 1 out of three correct... sadz...

swimming carnival: due to the swimming carn, we left sc early at 12... cool... so we left sch, went to the swimming pool, then mass swim for fintan and marcian started.. i swam 8 laps... not bad considering that i havent swam in dno how long... and i am still recovering from my op in december on my appenidx... so as im drying up, there is suddenly a shortage of ppl for competitive... so i tell rod to put me as last resort... in the end still cannot ind anyone to replace me.. so in the end they put me in 4X50m.. not very gd considering i was doing breast strke all the way for the mass swim... so i was third swimmer wif tim lim, nicholas and another guy not from our class... so tim lim gaves us a very gd lead... then nicholas contonued it... haiz... whin it came to me i tried to keep up wif ht... but just cldnt... so i lagged a lot... in the end i tink i was 1 of the last... haiz... sry guys... feel really bad... esp to those in the team... really sry...

and i just realised that xiao yang is a real ass hole...

after swimming: we wanted to play lan, so went to parklane... all the lan shops were either full or didnt allow sch uniform.. so in the end we decided to book first then wait.. so we waited.. and waited... meanwhile eating at mac... so we then went into the shop.. and watied... and waited... watched other ppl play... while standing up... for some reason i brought back quite a lot of books... so my bag was damn heavy... so we waited... waited from abt 3 to abt 5... and still no com available... so in the end canceled our booking... so til now i still have never gone to play lan... took mrt back... was standing up all the way.... so reached home abt 6.30... legs damn pain and i was damn tired...

y is it that whenever we try, it just isnt gd enuf?

Nobody said it was easy

2005-03-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

well.. nobody said it was easy... really... oh well.. todae had 2.4 run.. i failed.. 14:09.. my FIRST 2.4 in dno how long liao... so wasnt so bad.. stupid edmond go and anyhow say the timing... then after that was quite pissed.. so yelled at him.. sry k .. after that during chem prac gabriel and some others really pissed mrs tan off.. so in the end she got so angry we just didnt do prac and went back to class... wah lau.. then they still like dun care.. getting really pissed wif gabriel.. he is really screwing the class up.. haiz...

so i got back my maths result... i passed... but i still didnt get wat i expected.. i got 29.. so i got a 29.. so i passed.. but so? even if i passed i still didnt get wat i aimed for... ya, so u may say that it is a pass, but i need more than a pass to pull up my other subjects.. and compared to my past results, it just really sux. sry if ur offended.

then after that we went to rod's house to do the graphic organiser. thot it would take a long time. in the end took only abt 10 minutes. the rst of the time was spent looking at his pics :D and playing gundam... lol..

well, it is quite amazing to actually tink of life. even as a teenager, it seems u haf gone thru so much, and yet we haf so much more in life to go thru.. lol... isnt it just so amazing... but yeah.. nobody said it was easy...

NEW!

2005-03-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

NEW blog.. just uploaded.. i noe it looks kinda crappy still... pls bear wif me.. any comments tag or if tag board not working pls tell me k.. hope u like thee music

Dragon Boat Race

2005-02-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

ok. todae 2 major things happened, in class and out. well, todae had lit test... was quite ok i tink.. wah lau.. how rod write so much??!! damn sick.. but taht is not the major thing. for some reason, after class, ever1 (well, alomst every1) was screaming.. some reason... weird.. so i like shout to try and get them to shut up. they dun care. carry on screaming. so i just leave them and sit down. just nice, brother michael walks by. was like omg. rod was also like about to tell me that we were gonna get really screwed badly for all the screaming. so brother michael comes in, asks all who were screaming to get out. they come back later wif j liew. j liew starts scolding us.. blah blah... so on... and we are now in j liews bad books. bah.. and edmund wants to take certain drastic measures.. weird...

second major thing. dragon boat race. we arrived there and it immediately started. argh... was damn sad lah.. our 24 men sec 3s could haf won lor.. was really damn sad.. when we got into the boat, we set off, then as we were reversing into the starting point, the steerer did not lift up the steer high enuf, so the steer kind of went into the sand. managed to get it out. then the race started, so we actually had a very good lead. we were on par or ahead of michael. then dno y, we started to go left, onto shore.. we were like wtbf, so were like trying to reverse, then dno how, the steer broke! was like wtf... was really damn sad lah... then after that our 12 men were leading, then dno y in the end i tink michael overtook us, and we got second... damn.. michael really owned lah... they really won alot.. and we didnt even win 1.. noooo... so sad.. potential nedal and we missed it becuz of faulty equipment... arghz... sadz... aniwae, it started to rain, so we were like trying to get to shelter.. was like running in the rain, barefooted, and could not see clearly.. was damn siao lah.. then i tink i got a few blisters.. cuz was barefooted... then manged to find a pavillion.. THE PAVILLION OF DEATH.. lol.. so we were like stranded there... took pictures wif rod's phone.. then i was saying the rosary for some reason.. after taht ivan's father came and we all squeezed into his car... then went to the canoe centre to get ivan.. the way the uncle was damn cool.. driving against the traffic.. was like going "dun gabra dun gabra.." then got off at the centre, cuz me and some others were not going to to thomson.. so we got off and wlaked back to where we were at... took bus to King albert park.. had my lunch at like 5;45.. lol
argh... feel damn sad... hmm.. oh well.. bb..

i have no life..

2005-02-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

i have no life. this is wat i haf concluded. y do i say that? cuz its true. i cant go out on my own, i only get 60 a month, i cant do wat i like.. its just pure bull shit. why i always wonder.. why..

update

2005-02-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

??? nth happened to dae... well, went to genki sushi... quite nice... other than that was quite dead... nitez!

results...

2005-02-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

well, todae got back e maths test... but i want to talk abt my day first... first period, english. comphrehension test. damn. i wonder whether it will turn out like all the other comphres... after recess, social studies. i tink our class was 1 of the last few to take the test. was quite ok larh... but some ppl actually wrote only 1 point for the essay.... that is like damn sad.. lang du i had never ever read the passage before. only during class then i started reading. but managed to get 8.

scouts was ok lar... had knots test. me, karjun, shih hoong and arvind were the only 1s who managed to pass all of our knots without failing. SOOOO, loi lets us "play" with him... how? PT! so we started from the scout den... ran to the canteen... then to the pull up bars at the track... loi tells us to do dips... then we continue to the brothers quarters... and out we go! so as we run by 1 of the houses.. and suddenly some stupid bitches (wait, maybe they were male.) came chasing after us... i mean DOGS! what were u tinking... so we start running... then loi tells us to stop... so we stop and walk a bit... then we continue after a while... run all the way to the main entrance... ran back into the canteen... then see dk... so we stop... and haf a short water break... then we continue... loi was really damn lame at this point... wait for all of us to run pass the staircase, then suddenly goes up the stairs... KNN... so we go all the way to the third, than 4th floor... then we run all the way to the sec4 block... run down 1 staircase... at this time was lagging like siaoz... they were going down the stairs... so i just went by another staircase... and ended up at the s2nd level foyer to watch rugby... lame... wat a GREAT way to encourage ppl to pass the test at 1 shot... wow... fun fun fun... wee.... so after that had more pt... which for some reason was led by trent and marcus instead of the sec 4s... hmm... oh well... im sorry to trent for kinda shouting at u... din really mean it... anyway after pt was quite tired... so after pt go home... and i got a scarf and a unit pt shirt for the locker... noo... 9.50... wated on a stupid locker to try and help other ppl... oh wellss...

so now my maths result. 39/50. k i noe it sounds likee im bragging... sry if u feel offended in any way.. anyways, heard that teeee got full marks. damn. anyways... i want my a maths paper... tink i got gd chance of comparing wif shih hoong... byez!