-i have decided.-
i suppose its come down to this. well i made 2 major decisions, which WILL impact my life quite greatly.
ok, so one, i suppose
and 2. i have had enough of whats going on in scouts. and i am going to do something. if that doesnt work i will move on to something more drastic. and if that doesnt work... lets see how things turn out first shall we.
"she's on your mind"
-Maybe its just me-
or either that i am very bad at dropping hints.
dont know where i should go from here. the o levels are about 200 days away. which honestly isnt alot of time. and i know what i have to do. but then i dont feel like doing it.
i need a guide. not my parents though. as much as it might sound bad and all that, i have heard enough from them.
Lord, if you are reading this help me.
-my birthday just passed-
and it was rather quiet and sad. dont think i shall elaborate any more. it was just sad.
-can i be your memory-
tmr is 23rd march. ermm, sports heats day. YEAH...
=) heh
the best present i could receive is not from you, but you.
-SJI campfire 2006: Living Iridescence-
campfire was quite
and i dont think we should have cheered that much, as in after the campfire. it was like rather extra, and also kind of holding up the other schools from going for refreshments.. i mean ok if it had happened during the thing itself wouldnt be that bad i suppose.. or then again..
and its quite stressing on the voice having to shout at people to cheer so that they will actually cheer. dont know whats wrong with them, why cant they just do what they have to do..
and some sec 1s have attitude problem. honestly. but then again i wont need to care because they wont be seeing me as much as their sec 1 trainers. so yeahh..
oh wells, i suppose the campfire turned out... oh forget it, no word can describe it.. so yeah, good night everyone, dont sleep too late. (i should learn to take my own advise)
-the longest kiss-
tired. yeah, been staying in school since wednesday morning to evening. yet when i get home i cant seem to find the strength to tell myself to complete my homework. just really tiring..
and i dont know what is happening right now. all i know is that im listening to all the songs you sent to me, and thinking about it. wish i could get my message across to you.
lets hope that tomorrow's campfire will be a success
-nonsense-
see a penny pick it up, all day long you'll have good luck.
right, who am i trying to kid here?
things have come to a very nasty end.
go figure.
im not saying anymore, in case i am said to be calling myself the victim of everything.
i dont deny i was wrong.
but did things have to turn out this way?
so lets see if there will be anymore turning points in the future for now.
-and im so sick of love songs-
really? hmm..
got back all of my results. and i got a c5 for english. cant. believe. it.
sigh.. kinda sad.. but oh well, i only have myself to blame. which i shall not do, rather i shall use it and spur myself on.
happy dreaming!
-why cant i turn off the radio
-238 days to O levels!-
238 days left to o levels af tmr. and although it might not seem like a lot of time, there will definitely be alot of crap. oh and i counted for my own schedule, i have prob about 85 days of no school including saturdays and sundays, 9 days after we leave sji, 37 days with stuff which willt ake the whole day, and less then 3 months of school days.. annd o levels starts on the 30 oct in case ur wondering. mid years are in may. chinese o levels is 29 may. random numbers and dates eh..
and just to clear some stuff up. what really happened was that i was at my table. doing my work. and then udbhav went to irritate roderick. roderick warns him but he still carries on. roderick threatens him. udbhav still carries on. roderick picks him up and tosses him over his shoulder, like judo style. all this while i am in my seat. and then the last thing i remember is udbhav's feet about to hit me. then i lose sight. when i finally start i find out my teeth were knocked out. and my tooth was fractured, not so simple as the whole thing coming off. so my nerves were exposed, the tooth was fractured into pieces, so when i reached the dentist i find out that there is still one other piece of the tooth that is missing, either i swallowed it or its in the class, and chances are that it was swept away by the cleaners. but not that it matters since it cant be fixed. im gonna have to do root canal treatment. and then put braces. and then when the teeth stop growing i can put bridge, implants or dentures. i cant even do a crown. and its gonna cost alot.
i didnt post all that to suan anyone. i dont blame anyone currently for it. i understand that it was not their intention for me to get hit and loose my teeth, the 2 front teeth at that. im posting this to tell all you insensitive people out there who keep smiling at me as if ur some kind of toothpaste seller. stop it. im currently not in the best of moods.
-why do these things happen to me?