-Are We Supposed To Do Things That Are Expected Of Us?-
yea, the title says it all. are we supposed to do things expected of us? is it a must? or is it an obligation? i really dont know whats going on in npc right now. i mean no offence to trent, but sometimes he just.. pisses me off... right, now everyone is going to read this and start saying things about me.. I KNOW THAT TEACHERS READ MY BLOG. and yes, i know which teachers they are. which kind of explains why i dont blog regularly. cuz somehow or rather what i write in my blog will be used against me. bleah.
mum's birthday tmr. just nice when everyone (ex 206 and scouts) decided to watch legend of zorro. so what should i do? i am expected to go with my mother, but then the rest of the people are like watching movies.. what should i do? i suppose i will end up going with my mom.. but im still feeling really frustrated.
changed blog song. Mr Brightside By The Killers. should have done so long ago. nice song. right..
-NPC-
ok, so maybe i should actually say something about whats going on in npc. the original team comprised shih hoong(pl), karjun(apl) , trent(cook/qm), me(qm/cook), matthew khoo(aqm), luzhi(scribe), shaun yeo(a. cook), shannon yong(a. scribe) thats basically what the team was at first. then great shih hoong, apparently was doing pull ups for god knows what reason, and then his great friend comes along and hangs on him for god knows what reason, and he falls and breaks his arm. so ok.. no shih hoong, that is like... bad... cuz sec 3s already short of pro people, and shih hoong is like one of the best already.. so what happens? we go around, asking for replacements(more like begging). tried aravind first. he had to go back to malaysia. so ok, then we could try the qms. but, marcus has india trip, and even though he can go for the camp itself, he will miss all the trainings, so quite pointless.. then chin hao had his ipoh trip to attend. so he also couldnt go. so how about the secrataries? gabriel. cannot. work. that is a fact... i think maybe even he admits that.. and besides, he doesnt want to go cuz he has bad experience and dunno what reasons.. so then darren.. im actually fine with darren, he can work, but, zong bing says that he is a joker, and the way he speaks is kinda disrespectful. i sort of agree with that, but thats not the main thing here. the main point, is that no who could even come close to matching shih hoongs standard could go. so how?
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thankfully, chin hao spoke with my gregory, gregory spoke to kenny, and kenny spoke to brother mike. they found a replacement for chin haos ipoh trip, and he able to go for npc. which is like omg.. thank god.. if not.. hmm.. dunno lah, the point is that chin hao took over shih hoongs place. which is good.
so anyway, apart from the members problem, we are also having an attitude problem. is it just me, or is there no way to get people to work? hmmm.. i dont understand what im saying.. wow, interesting. anyways.. we have to get our attitude straightened out. fast.
Goal: Go For Gold!
-confused.-
schools over. hooray.
im in npc. hooray.
shih hoong injured his arm. and he cant go for npc. hooray?
how should i feel now?
is there any guide book for life?
im confused.
and tired.
-Last Training for the Year-
ok, not quite the last, rather the last one of the school term. so how did it go? let see...
half of the sec 2s were at ace camp.
out of the other half who did not go, only 6 people turned up.
the rest? sick, buying equipment, didnt bring uniform so decided not to come down, blah blah..
so what do i do with 6 people? i scheduled for footdrills. and i wanted to actually make it slack for them. not my usual self, but then again, normal meeting there is no ace camp which will take away half the level. so anyway, what did i do with them in the end? made them help us (sec 3s going to help at chao yang cip) pick kindling. so after that, had no idea what to do since footdrills with 6 people is just pointless. so lim chuan say let them play soccer. so ok, lets go street soccer court. in the end its occupied by npcc (some inter unit competition). so we watch them play, then decided it was really pointless, and then went back to the den. sat there for a while, talk cock abit, then decided on playing monkey. then went to the hockey pitch since we decided that playing around the flag pole was rather dangerous. i still hadnt changed out of my uniform at this point, mainly because i saw no real point.. ok, so maybe i was wrong about that. so anyway, then we kinda had an soccer match with sjab. wasnt very long, but got thrashed like 5-0. sad... then just nice the sec 1s came to the track for pt, and daryl was watching them. then he looked at us. we were playing soccer. which according to lim chuan, mr kwang allowed as pt. anyway, i decided that that was a good time to go change. so i did, not sure what happened after that, but then when i come back, i see daryl screaming at the whole contingent, more so directed at the sec 3s. so he questions me about why i didnt follow the schedule. i was thinking, are we like, supposed to follow the schedule no matter what happens? i didnt expect only 6 people. what could i do? i was asked to plan that on wednesday. so i just did what seemed more sensible. whatever.. then i take the level and bring them for pt. i scream at them, make them cheer, pump them.. my main reason behind doing that? trying to show daryl that i can let the level have fun and yet able to discipline the level. did it work? i have no idea.. so then made them do logs.. then made them change.. then fall out.. after that got scolded (kinda) by daryl.. and then talk alot of lame cock.. thats basically how the training went.. if i remember correctly...
and guys, could u all just leave what i did in eurojam alone? if things had turned out differently i might have accepted it, but u guys are just reminding me of how stupid and how much of a idiot i was.. so if u guys dont mind just like.. drop that subject..
-New Song!-
hey... finally put up a new song, after the request of edmond. haha.. hope u guys like this song. well, i suppose this song does have a certain meaning to me.. go figure
NB Ridaz feat. Angelina - Notice Me
(NB ridaz)
Ohh I want to let you know
That I'll always love you baby
(angie)
Sometimes I think about
Everything that we've been through
And I pray that you would just open your eyes (NB rides)
I love you (I love you baby, I love you to girl) I need you (I need you too)
So please don't throw our love away (forgive me girl, Don’t throw our love away)
(Nb ridaz)
Since the day you and I snuck away to be alone
I knew from that night something special went on
It must have been the first kiss
You told me that nobody else in the world made you feel this
I felt the same way too but nothing stays the same
I'm sorry for the tears I'm sorry for the pain
You were the one that always made things right
I promise you this though you got a friend for life
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets jus kiss and say goodbye
Cuz I really cant stand the pain of seeing you cry
(angie)
I've given everything (given everything)
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me (forgive me baby)
I've given everything (yeah)
I loved you endlessly (oooh)
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
(NB ridaz)
All that's mine is yours that's what I said
Treat you with love and respect in everyway
You wanted I gave it need me I was there
Now you treat me like if I'm not here
I love you and I need you don't want to let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more I feel im dying inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?
I know I'm not prefect but I truly cared
So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there
Jus remember I loved you it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away
(angie)
I've given everything (given everything)
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything (yeah)
I loved you endlessly (oooh)
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
(NB ridaz)
I gave you my good and my bad
My heart and my soul,
My trust my money my time,
What more could you ask for in a man
Even when times are hard
I held out my arms and held you
Even excepted you though whatever weather
But now I feel it we're at the end of the road
Whatever we had now I got to let go
Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall
To cover my tears
Wishing I could replace all those wasted years
Of loving someone who couldn't love me back
And now again I got to start from scratch
But I know I've given you my everything
(angie)
I've given everything (given everything)
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything (yeah)
I loved you endlessly (oooh)
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
-Results for FYE 2005-
ok, so today i got back all of my results. and i think that i didnt actually screw up too badly. i feel kinda proud of myself since i achieved a great deal of these results by myself, through my own efforts and work. ok, enough bullcrap, my results--->>>
English: 67, B3.
Chinese: 41, E8.
Chemistry: 57, C5.
Physics: 70, A2.
Emath: 77, A1.
Amath: 67, B3.
Literature: 60, B4.
History Elective: 50, C6.
...
Average: 61.125%
L1R5: 18
yea ok, i screwed up chinese really badly... but i really didnt know what to write for the comphrehension so i just anyhow chose a phrase and copied it.. but im quite surprised with my physics, amath and history results. was quite surprised that i got an A2 for physics, which i have been failing the past year. well, ok, so maybe some tution helped.. as for amath, i was all set to fail it. i knew that i screwed it up badly, but i have no idea how i managed a 67 after moderation.. and as for history, i was quite sure that i was going to fail too, mainly because of my essays.. turned out that my sbq, surprisingly, pulled me up quite a bit. just managed to pass..
but im quite pissed with myself about chemistry and literature. yea, should really have studied harder for chemistry, all my mugging for chemistry was last minute and short term memory is useless as compared to long term memory.. nvm, o levels! and i seriously think that i should have gotten higher for literature. maybe i wasnt focused on that day, or maybe i just felt like slacking. i dunno, but i should be getting more than that. o levels...
hmmm, im not sure what my position is in class, but im hoping that im top 5. but doesnt seem possible, since kc has about 62% and he is 4th.. lets just see how things turn out..
to all: may we accept our marks, and use it, whether good or bad, as a guideline for how much harder we have to work. o levels!! dont give up!!
-School After OBS-
went back to school on monday.. honestly it didnt feel as if there was school on sunday night.. haha, sometimes i wish i was back in OBS.. so anyway, went to school, after assembly went to class, then we watched a movie! its like whoa.. "I Robot". watched it once already, but watcehd it again.. haha, will smith is damn good... so after that went to the hall, and yes, sec 3s have finally upgraded to the gallery! woot! lol.. so there was prize presentation (congrats to darrick and jeremy for getting the distiguished lasallian award and all others who received prizes) and there was the farewell of mr foo, who taught in sji for 43 years. thats a long time. yea.. also farewell to miss d costa.. wonder what the new teachers (if there are any) are going to be like... then i went down to the scout den.. and i had called for the fall in after school.. and apparently sec 2s dont read the notice board everyday.. ok, so maybe im the freak.. whatever..
then went down to the scout hq to buy a topo map with darren.. but stupid me forgot that the scout den is closed on mondays... so i just went to macs to get my lunch first, then called chin hao, who also needed a topo map. so we decided to go to beach road to buy.. lol.. then chin hao and darren were just pissing me off, telling lame jokes, the same way trent does it.. in moderation lame jokes are ok, but if it just keeps coming at u non stop, it gets really really pissing. so anyway, we took quite a while to find the army place (mainly cuz of them telling stupid lame jokes which kinda screwed my orietation of the place) so when we got there we were just walking around asking whether the shops sold maps.. so we went to the end and found this shop which sold maps at like $22! which was quite a good deal considering that karjun bought his map, also at beach road, for $33! lol.. then the shop owner said "ok, since u all are students i sell to u for $20" that was like cool... also bought a poncho and this pair of gloves, u know those kind of biker gloves, for $4 a pair.. haha.. its quite cool.. then we were just sitting in the hawker centre talking cock.. then went home... ya, thats about it...
~side note: i need a faster com with a better internet connection. oh and btw passerby, mind telling me who u are? i wont really bother trying to find out who u are so if u want to be known then tell me who u are, if not i shall just consider u as some nameless passerby and forget u~
today was quite eventless.. nothing more to say.. since im not going to curse or swear on this blog... =X wont say anymore. bye!
-Outward Bound Singapore-
im back from obs! actually was back on friday... lol.. anyway, i had a really great time at obs. my watch was Cook.
Instructor: Kenn
Us: Trent, Michael Lian, Jansen, Joshua, Kai Xiang, Kelvin, Hygiene, Joey, Xing Hao, Mok Chin Hao, Terrence, Samuel, Bernard and me. (Yi Jiang too, bu he fell sick half way and had to leave..)
yup, thats us. haha, was a really great watch, though we didnt really start out that well. i still remember on the first day where there was some probs with the group, mainly that no one wanted to do things for the group so it was like just left to me and trent ( the 2 scouts ) to do all the stupid crap. so that night, kenn told us that he could also see that there as a prob aand told us we needed to sort it out. so we gathered in one corner, and trent started like talking and talking.. i added a bit here and there.. mainly about how the group is not functioning as a group, rather as individuals. after taht i thought there was not going to be any changes cuz it looked as if no one had listened. but we were wrong. we started to work together, packing our bags, rationing the food, carrying the tents. we started to share the load, that was really heartening.
one of the memorable activites was the high elements. we first had to cross a bridge with a rope hanging overhead to help us balance. than we had to cross a log, hung in mid air by chains, with nothing to hold onto for support. than came the worst. we had to walk on 2 metal wires, nothing to hold onto, nothing as support. in the end everyone used the belay as a handle. lol... but it was fun cheering people on and trying it out.
then there was also "The Final Commitment", which apparently only our watch and Raleigh did. =) haha, it was just basically a tunnel underground. its pitchblack. seriously. cant see a thing in there. absolutely. black. only way out was in, so we had to go through the tunnel, feel our way around until we got to the exit. actually i kinda knew it was gonna be short, cuz kenn told me to go in through one pipe, and i saw another pipe like just a few feet away.. lol.. what was weirder was that when i came out, there was no one around. kenn had gone off somewhere, so i was like wondering around. than remembered that he pointed to somewhere in the trees and said that the others were waiting there, so i just went there and found them.. hmm.. wonder what it meant..
so yea, i had a really fun time. but u know it was like the last camp i had gone for was eurojam, which was really really the best camp i have been to, so i was abit disappointed in the first few days, but slowly obs caught on. "To Serve To Strive And Not To Yield." the motto of OBSingapore. yes, memories will stay with me. will always remember this.
ps. will try to put up the group photo once we get it.
-inactive again...-
going for OBS.. camp compulsary for all sec 3s.. so yeah.. inactive for about another week..
Good Luck To All Going OBS. =D
-Reflections on FYE 2005-
k, finally going to talk about exams.. overall think i dint screw anything. then agian. did i? hmm, lets see...
[English] ok, think i wrote too long. well, 4 pages is kinda long for an essay right? lol.. had a lot of time for comphrehension, dunno whether thats good or bad..
[Chinese] arghs.. well, honestly there wasnt much to do for chinese, not like in previous years where we had to memorise like siao.. but chinese comphrehension open ended was really tough.. it was like just take any paragraph where the word appears and put it in.. =S
[Chemistry] bad. as compared to people like chin hao the top class people. hmm, but then again, maybe i should just relax, i prob will get an average score.. i hope.. really hope.. i think i mugged chem alot.. the most of all my subjects...
[Emath] both papers were generally do-able. except for a few qns which stumped me, but i shd be able to pass this one.
[Social Studies] screwed one of my essays. didnt study political reasons, only studied economic reasons for split of merger. not sure of whether my inference was right or wrong.
[Physics] tough paper. seriously. did all that i could do. but i really felt like sleeping halfway through the paper, i mean 2.5 hours is really hard to sit through.. and there was also the screw up with the distance and velocity time graph. it was like i drew the velocity graph, then read the question it said distance. so erased it then did the distance time graph, curve here curve there. then like half hour to the end of the paper eric lam comes into our class and says "ok boys, for question... change it from distance time graph to a velocity time graph" whole class was like "wtf", "#@$@$!@%@$" and "can we have time extension" he was like there should be no need for extension, u all should have done the velocity time graph in the first place. i means its like wth, get the exam script right before u let us take the paper!
[Amath] really. really. screwed. no further comments.
[History Elec.] just like social studies.. could do one essay but didnt study for the other.. oh wells... just hoping...
[Literature] last paper of all, so was just like dying to get it over with. quite bad mentality.. and ya, i think i screwed this too.. but was rejoicing when it was over..
so yea, thats basically how my exams were. just hope i didnt screw up.
-FYE 2005-
English Paper 2
Chinese Paper 1
Chemistry
E Maths Paper 1
Social Studies
Physics
A Math
History Elec
E Math Paper 2
Chinese Paper 2
Literature
ITS FINALLY OVER!!! WOO!