-Holy Week-
hmm.. this holy week actually hasnt really been that holy for me... esp wif ppl like gary screwing my life... wth... anyway... Maundy Thursday i went for mass, then had to help sell some shirts.. saw mark v. (wait, i couldnt possibly haf.. :S ..hehe )...then went home... didnt stay for vigil.. Gd Friday was spent mostly at home, stoning away... i can actually count wat i ate... 4 slices of plain bread, the communiun(well, it is the Bread Of Life), and some sort of like a brownie which i bought from my church... oh well... in the afternoon i went for mass, then stations of the cross, and then night prayer... slept at arnd 10.30.. yay, i managed not to play any com or watch any tv on friday... well.. it was quite difficult... considering i haf sisters who were just playing and watching tv the whole day... they dont really seem to too invovled on holy wekk.. but wat can i say... holy saturday had to go for some stupid badge patch thing... in bishan.. at 9.. had to get there my self.. so was kinda rushing.... then when i get there, they suddenly say that it was starting at 10.. so was like wth... anyway... after that all we did was look at badges, scarfs and woggles... talking abt woggle... mi and marcus shared a hand made woggle... $2... made of speaker cables... lol.. todae went over to neighbour's house for lunch.. hehe... then went for mass.. yeah.. thats kind of how my week was.. well, now its the season of easter! can eat meat on fridays without a uilty consince.. :S ya, i noe im not a very practising catholic... not gd... oh well... congrats to Roderick, Geovann and Daniel Toh and a few others for getting baptised this easter.. just haf this to say.. WELCOME TO THE FAMILY!
-Gd Fri-
hmm.. tmr is gd friday.. a day of absitnence.. so wont be online... ya... whee...
-My birthday..-
hmm.. it was my birthday todae. so? so wat if it was my b dae.. it wasnt any different from any other fucking day... i wasnt any happier... and things werent any much better.. yes, some well wishes, (thx) , but still... some how, my life is just getting soo... confusing. why.. they say that ur b dae is supposed to be ur happiest day of the year.. that didnt really show... why? cuz of fucking idiots from my past and present. yah, so i wasnt really that strong, ok, so i came across as some 1 who was weak and could be bullied, but that was last time wasnt it. things change. i have a past i dun want every1 to noe, every1 probably has a past that they dun want others to noe.. we all have our own secrets.. cant we keep it that way? its cuz of retards who dun respect other ppl.. thats wat makes all this shit just so.. screwed up.
[gary] note wat font i used.. shows wat kind of person he is.. and his brain size.. almost invisible... nothing.. wish i could just crush it like that... but why.. or why not?
[gabriel] look, if u haf a problem wif me, then fine. wateva. just leave me and wat happened in the past alone. just shut up. fuck off. u dun need to spread to the whole world wat u tink u noe. just shut up.
hai.. ironic isnt it.. that i haf to do this kind of stuff on my b dae.. oh well.. shd be like wat was writen for the stations of the cross , smth along the lines of: help us not to expect pity from others.. so yeah.. be strong. live strong. yeah.. wth..
{my life is confusing.}
-Darrick's CCA hike..-
wee.. last nite came back from Darrick's CCA hike... went as a follower... along wif gabriel and trent.. ya... was quite fun... but tiring... but i felt quite bad...
7.15am, 1st day: was the time i was suposed to be ready and darrick's dad was picking me up... in the end i was still asleep... my alarm rang... i turned it off andd went back to sleep... felt real bad... tried to get ready asap... then went off... felt quite bad...
7.45am, 1st day: time we reached scout hq... we werent late... thankfully... but still felt quite bad...
8am:we went to the hall on the 3rd floor to set up our lay out... we were just about done when they sudddenly said bring ur layout down stairs... was like wtf... so we borught it done re did our layout and waited for inspection...
9am: inspection was done... they asked us for our parents contact no. and our ic number... which i thot was quite pointless... so we set off for our staritng point...
6.15pm: reached west coast park... sleeping point... so we set up our tent... cooked dinner... did all the shit... then i was left to guard the tent... was damn boring... then midway, some of the ppl in charge came and inspected us... then they asked like wat was our starting point, wat time we reach, was carrying the tent heavy... hmm.. seems like they tink we cheated... oh well... went to sleep at abt 11...
12 midnight:woke up, antoher inspection ... then after that let trent go to the tent and sleep... while i went to darrick and gabriel... who were doing his hike log at that time... so went to help darrick wif his log... was holding the torch.... torchbearer??!! so anyway... after that we saw two police cars... then was like wtf?? wat did we do.. but we just contitnued... then they walked over to us... then asked us,"wat are u all doing??" we were like"oh,we're scouts, doing cca hike.. " then they ask us whther got permit... tell us go to sleep... blah blah... so ya... we didnt get into any trouble.. after that went to slp...
1.40am, 2nd day: fell asleep..
6am, 2nd day: woke up... felt quite tired... then we were playing a lot... throwing bars and myojo packs around... playing wif water bottles... gosh... really childish...
7.45am: left west coast park... went on to NUH...
10.45am: finished hike at PSA building.. happy! got starbucks chocalate... yums... darrick paid for like half of it... then we took taxi to harbourfront..
11.30am: reached harbourfront... went to macs for lunch... darrick paid for my meal... felt bad.. . so gave the money to trent... hmm... felt like i was at least paying for it?? oh well... then we did his log till abt 2.30... then left harbourfront to go to bishan...
3.15am: reached bishan... went to scout hq... saw that a lot of ppl had coloured their sketches.. so last minute we rushed to colour... while darrick got some more details for the description...
6.00pm: passed up the hike log... =)... tink darrick has got a gd chance of passing the hike log... gd luck wif ur log k Darrick...
so that was the hike... i spent nearly all my money... some of it buying patrol locker equipment... grr... so tmr gonna get money from treasurer... rite now haf only like less than $2 for THE REST OF THE MONTH!!.. wth... will haf to borrow a lot i tink.... oh ya rod, im sry.. but i dun tink i can get u ur b dae present yet... real sry.. but i really haf no $$.. sry.. if u can wait till next month, then i can gif... but rite now really no money...
-My B'dae Celebration!-
hey.... celebrated my b dae on 17th of march.. well... iit was quite fun... abt the best i have had before... for me, i tink there were actually a lot of ppl... abt 8 ppl came: rod, sai chuen,ht, kev, engwei, shih hoong, kai jie, janan.. not a lot but hey, i havent had that many ppl come to my house before... in fact, its the first other than rod and javier... it was quite fun... watched hitch.. played a bit of ps2... had a bbq... watched more tv... got some presents... thx for all... btw, i dun need any presents, and i haf no particular item that i want, so u dun haf to give.. but if u really insist, u dun need to get anything expensive or rack ur brain tinking of wat i will like becuz its the thot that counts... k.. =)
-Jobweek/ Legion Camp-
heys... came back from camp on monday nite... was damn tired... first day went to 6th avenue wif ibrahim... i got abt $94... then wanted to play lan... so went to coro... but all booked... so then took bus to IRC... but halfway decided to stop.. got off at abt newton mrt.... then took bus back to sch... was like wth?? wasted so much time and ez link money... so went back to sch... then saw **THAT -WHICH -MUST -NOT -BE NAMED** ... lol... so anyway... saw darrick and gabriel they went to talk to ** in the canteen... while me and ibrahim went to the squash court instead... after a while, decided we waited long enuf... so went to sec 1 block where they were.. then we were like laming arnd... lol... so total for the first day was $100 (i added that extra to make it...)
2nd day had pt in the morning... having pt is a real stupid idea... esp when its under ^^ ... the theory is that its supposed to wake us up... but practically, it just makes us more tired... stupid idea... so anyway.... went to bukit timah this time... at ht hse down there... total for that area was $125.. :D wahhahaha... quite high considering others got like 20, 30.. hehe... then that day went to ht hse.. watch him play dota and d2... lol... we were like slacking lor... then at nite went over to legion camp.. was damn lame lor actually... all legion members were supposed to go for the camp.. then i thot gregory didnt allow me... then in the end i find out that he only didnt allow me to leave earlier.. so i was like wth... that day i got sunburn on my neck lor... cld haf been slacking... so anyway... went to the grotto... tried to help a bit... but wasnt really much help.. so in the end fell asleep on the ground... woke up a while later... then had some supper, then went to the class rooms to put away bags... so we had sharing.. didnt realise that so many ppl had actually joined olgc... wow.. really amazing... after that we went to esso... after we returned, was talking to ##... was quite shocked by wat he said... idun wish to name this person mainly to kinda protect his privacy... but ya.. he told me that his life was really screwed up.. he was smoking, not talking to his family, having problems... i just hope he is ok... so slpt wif the legion ppl (not wat tink..)...
so woke up at arnd 7.30... saw the scouts doing pt... oh well... felt quite bad.. but also relieved... heard so storys that ** was shouting at every1, cuz they ran 6 rounds... the ** was going like "ARE U TIRED??!!" smth like that... lol... ** now has a reputation for being a gay and a loser and a control freak... but we all dno who ** is now do we... shhhh... so anyway... 3rd day.. not many places left... so went to jonathan david's place to try that area again... i managed to get abt $45 by abt half day... so cnot bad lah... then went to his house..
-pre- job week...-
hmm... to dae had ptm.. i dun really noe wat periasamy said to my mom.. but i tink wasnt anything bad... so anyway... after that took bus to tution becoz tmr got jobweek camp, so cannot go... so i went todae for makeup lesson... so aniwae.. i took 170... then cuz i gave my ez card to my sis to top up, i didnt have it wif me... so i paid by coins... then i put in 60 cents.. the fare is 55 cents for students... BUT... the @#*! bus driver suddenly looked at me... i looked at him.. he asks me why i gave only half price... i tell him that im a student... then he asks for my id... i tell him i dun haf it... he says no id then not half price... i was like wtf.... wtfwtfwtf.... so i just give the money to the @#*! driver... i was like tinking ," IF i actually had my id wif me, wldnt i haf like used my ez link instead of pay by cash??!!" ... a*s*o*e....
tmr got job week camp... target to earn: $600+... ambitious yes.... thats abt 200 a day... but will go for it... hmm... then sunday is legion camp.. which i had paid for the camp fees... BUT gregory said he doesnt want me to go... so fine.. wateva... but do i get back my $$?... aniwaes wont be back till monday nite... so gd nite...
-The End of Term 1 '05-
hmmm... so we come to the end of term 1 2005... generally i tink it passed my quite well... not much of teasing or watever... so it was gd... also got a new class.. new frens... new results... new subjects.... blahblah.... anyways... my results are as follows:
English-57, c5 (wtf... periasamy is like bloody f* strict lah... comphre can get like 7/25... then vocab test can get lie 4/10... wtf... then i still dn see y i only got 11.8 for my presentation...)
A. Math-60, b4 (haiz... quite sad... even tho i passed, i still tink i didnt do well... i dno.. maybe cuz i was really careles... but we must learn to accept, move on and score!)
E. math-78, A1 (hmm... this is 1 of my 2 A1s... not bad.. but cld really haf been better... )
Chinese- 54, c6 (well.... at least i passed.. considering i failed the test itself... 43/100... so to pass is quite a relief.. in a weird way.. )
Chemistry-68,b3 (hmm... not too bad.. didnt really study for the test.. it was avtually quite easy to be honest... )
Physics-80, A1 (hehe.. my other A1... i tink it is quite a gd grade... but i dno how i got so high when quite a lot of others actually failed... oh well... then it was kinda funny... when the report paper cmae out, they put that i had only 26... i was like wtf??!!... lol.. but got it changed in the end...)
Literature-66,b3 (hmm im improving.. thats a gd thing... all thing start small... yeah rite... anyway... im kinda satisfied wif these marks...)
History elec.-43, e8 (... i fell damn sad abt this... cuz my first test, an inference test, i had the wrong inference, so in the end i only got 2/10 for that particular test... sad... and i got 13/20 for the other... sad... i failed a subject...)
so that is basically all my marks for this term... hmm... average shd be 63.25%, 11th position... next term must aim for top ten, then after that top 5... weee.... must go for it... apart from studies, scouts has been kinda ok... a bit pissing at times... but other than that ok lar... so thats my summary of this term....
[tmr ptm, i dno wat periasamy will say abt me to my mum... hope nth bad...)
-update.. again...-
another update... nth has been happening... havent got back all my marks yet... so far 1 failure, 2 a1, some bs... cant really remember... past few days have been spent wasting my time away... dno y, i always waste my weekends away when its the perfect time to study...
For those who are going to my birthday, its on the 17th of March, thursday. schedule is not confirmed, but will be smth like this. come to my house at 2pm. no lunch will be provided. then from 2-6 will be probably like playing soccer or ps or watever la... pls bring ps or xbox if u haf k... my hse only got com.... so at abt 6 will be barbeque. then after barbeque go home watever time u want... probably will be smth like this... so ya... thats abt it... niteZZZ.
-haiz... swimming carnival..-
haiz.. ytd was swimming carnival.. so i shall split it up into 3 parts
School: not much happened.. but. i did get back my social studies paper... i got 13... which is not so bad... but then the calculation for elective humans was really crappy... the first history test times 5 and this test times 2.5 ... so after the claculation, guess how much i got? 43. yes, i failed. cuz the first test i got only 2/10. which really sux. im probably gonna fail chinese too.. and a maths i got 61... haiz... aniwae, ttodae for maths, omf gave us some maths sums to do... whee... i cld do all the qns... but not in time.. so i tink i only got 1 out of three correct... sadz...
swimming carnival: due to the swimming carn, we left sc early at 12... cool... so we left sch, went to the swimming pool, then mass swim for fintan and marcian started.. i swam 8 laps... not bad considering that i havent swam in dno how long... and i am still recovering from my op in december on my appenidx... so as im drying up, there is suddenly a shortage of ppl for competitive... so i tell rod to put me as last resort... in the end still cannot ind anyone to replace me.. so in the end they put me in 4X50m.. not very gd considering i was doing breast strke all the way for the mass swim... so i was third swimmer wif tim lim, nicholas and another guy not from our class... so tim lim gaves us a very gd lead... then nicholas contonued it... haiz... whin it came to me i tried to keep up wif ht... but just cldnt... so i lagged a lot... in the end i tink i was 1 of the last... haiz... sry guys... feel really bad... esp to those in the team... really sry...
and i just realised that xiao yang is a real ass hole...
after swimming: we wanted to play lan, so went to parklane... all the lan shops were either full or didnt allow sch uniform.. so in the end we decided to book first then wait.. so we waited.. and waited... meanwhile eating at mac... so we then went into the shop.. and watied... and waited... watched other ppl play... while standing up... for some reason i brought back quite a lot of books... so my bag was damn heavy... so we waited... waited from abt 3 to abt 5... and still no com available... so in the end canceled our booking... so til now i still have never gone to play lan... took mrt back... was standing up all the way.... so reached home abt 6.30... legs damn pain and i was damn tired...
y is it that whenever we try, it just isnt gd enuf?
-Nobody said it was easy-
well.. nobody said it was easy... really... oh well.. todae had 2.4 run.. i failed.. 14:09.. my FIRST 2.4 in dno how long liao... so wasnt so bad.. stupid edmond go and anyhow say the timing... then after that was quite pissed.. so yelled at him.. sry k .. after that during chem prac gabriel and some others really pissed mrs tan off.. so in the end she got so angry we just didnt do prac and went back to class... wah lau.. then they still like dun care.. getting really pissed wif gabriel.. he is really screwing the class up.. haiz...
so i got back my maths result... i passed... but i still didnt get wat i expected.. i got 29.. so i got a 29.. so i passed.. but so? even if i passed i still didnt get wat i aimed for... ya, so u may say that it is a pass, but i need more than a pass to pull up my other subjects.. and compared to my past results, it just really sux. sry if ur offended.
then after that we went to rod's house to do the graphic organiser. thot it would take a long time. in the end took only abt 10 minutes. the rst of the time was spent looking at his pics :D and playing gundam... lol..
well, it is quite amazing to actually tink of life. even as a teenager, it seems u haf gone thru so much, and yet we haf so much more in life to go thru.. lol... isnt it just so amazing... but yeah.. nobody said it was easy...
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